𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓻𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓷𝓰𝓮

And I know you deserve it, I can't walk away

Song recommendation - Middle of the night, Into it, die for you

When the morning sunshine tore through windows directly hitting my face. The blaring light forced me to wake up. I patrolled in front of my bed for what felt like an hour without doing anything. My hair were a ruffled mess indeed. I smoothed them down but it remained like the image of a nest either way. I decided to hop into shower & let my thoughts cloud my mind. When I sat inside the tub, it was filled with water that warmed my insides & I succumbed to sleep like a baby being cradled, with legs to my chest & head resting on my knees.

I'm in a field with Eleanor, mamma & pappa. Mamma is watching the view ahead in the golden field of wheat gleaming under the sunlight while pappa is watching mamma. So in love & smitten. I run so fast, Elen failing to catch up. I grind my small feet harder, pushing the flat rich grassy ground beneath behind. I wanna pluck the nearest dandelion in sight first, even though I love them a lot. I want to give that one to mamma. I finally reached it, plucking it gently, upset that I am tearing it away from it's home. But I can't resist it's gorgeous white hairy things that bind similarity with tentacles. Delicate ones though.The moment I turn back to run towards my family. My whole world comes crashing down on me as I spot everyone leave me behind. I am so small I can't keep up with their adult steps. Hot tears escape my eyes & I call them out. "Mama, papa. Don't leave me behind. Take me with you. Don't leave please mama, papa. I love you please don't go", I shout as loud as I can as a child. The dandelion in my hand was wearing away. But I kept running. I ran & fell down.
The rough, rugged ground scraped my exposed knee & skin to my elbow as I wore an electric blue & gray shaded sundress. I run. But I was not able to keep up with. Mamma pappa blur from my sight as water filled my small, round eyes. I rubbed my hands to get rid of them. By the time, my sight finally clears there is no one here. I'm left all alone in a field of all beauty. But the world is a dungeon without love & loved ones. I scream. I scream out to my fate for doing that to me. I hit my hands on the ground in pain, the pain to my bleeding hands numb as the pain in my heart teared through my soul.
Wrenched my body of the only warmth I was given in this world. It snatched from me my loved ones away. I look at the setting sun, that was no more a sight to behold when the only thing I wanted was to be in the arms of my home, my family. Mamma, pappa & Eleanor.

"STAY PLEASE STAY-", I hear myself saying. There's loud banging somewhere, followed by shouts and rapid orders and a whole a lot of yelling but I'm still in this peaceful field. The voices in my head don't match with atmosphere here. They however do match my insides. I think I was dreaming. It was a nightmare maybe or maybe it was a daydream but I tried to break through & out of it. Someone was holding me tight, I felt, good. The hold on me was relaxing, calming & so I welcomed it. Softening in that firm hold that reminded me deeply of home. I struggled against the sharpness of LED light but still after a lot of work. I finally peeled open my eyes, they still weren't wide open, I was only squinting to make sense of the scene ahead.

The devil was holding me, coldness masking his bold features. A big forehead beholding disheveled raven black hair. But beneath his mask I found distress within. He was seeing away from me. Was I so disgusting he can not even bear seeing me? Am I so unbearable? But no, I found my answer to that, when I saw a towel cowering me. I was still seated inside the tub naked but he had covered me. He was not willing to see me without my consent. He respected my privacy, had his eyes lowered away from me as to not make me feel uncomfortable. I succumbed to his gentle hold over me. Embracing the heat his body radiated. For a moment I think I even rested my head atop his muscular shoulder. However discreetly it may have been but I do remember doing it. After a couple of minutes I took his hand into mine & grabbed the towel to properly cover myself. He stood up & I held his arm for support. My legs had given out long ago. The discomfort took place, tiring my entire body. This caught him off guard & he stilled. "Want me to help?", he inquired carefully. I accepted. This time he caught me off by placing his hands under my knees. He carried me as if I weighed nothing, cradling me in his firm, strong arms & placed me onto the bed. Without a word, he brought me a pajama set form the closet & left the room. Even though the pajamas were pretty lose, they provided comfort. When I changed into the other clothes, I just left the wet towel on ground, not bothering to keep it inside the bathroom tub for laundry. --------------------------------------------------------------------------‐----

I didn't really plan their moment but it turned out to be this way. Anyways, I hope you all love it<333