𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓻𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓷𝓰𝓮

the cracks in my shield

He grazed his thumb against my left cheek in delicacy, holding it ever so lightly. A soft gleam in his eyes & something beyond that. I'm not sure if I am right but I saw traces of adoration & lust within. He watched me as if his world revolved around me. "il mio vivace, It's not possible. Even though my dad was wrong with everything he did & I absolutely hate him for it. I can't do it. Much power & support from the famiglia still remains in his hands."

I took his words into consideration & countered otherwise. "No. You're wrong. I haven't seen much of your power. I'm sure many people serve under you. But as for your soldiers. I have seen through their eyes. I see that they are loyal to you. They put their trust in you. They deem you superior just as you are. They look forward to you for protection & for courage. No man is strong by themselves. People fool themselves into thinking they become powerful on their own. They are left unaware that something else largely contributes to their mindset. Some theory, incident, or even a human. Thee are various aspects that push people into changing to how they became a dominant force. And so, I have come to the conclusion that we must stop him. It is not right to stand-by & watch everyone die just because they pissed of your father. Or if he thought things were right the way he thinks they are. Let me tell you Lucifer, however twisted way your men follow all your orders. They will continue to do so as long as you show them who owns the place okay?", I returned at him. My words unrecognizable to my own ears. They were stronger than before. They held power & perhaps suffering somewhere beneath them as well, buried deep down but present there. 

"It's nothing else but fear what you saw within them. They're not here because they want. They are here because that's what supposed to be done. They are bound by the vendetta. They cover when they're even in the same room as me. They will worship me if I tell them to. They will become the ground under my feet or take bullet for me. Whatever I tell them, they have to do within a blink of an eye.", he smirked. Taking pride in his power & dominance above all. "Yes, I may be wrong but however that is. They shall obey the italian mafioso right? You have the answer to your words there. You decide either way as you're the only one in power between us, but remember, if you fail to do anything. You must engrave it in your massive skull that our parents"-I said pointing between us-"died for nothing."

With that I left the room, standing right outside but making sure I was out of his sight. I couldn't bear his gaze any longer. It angered me to see he hadn't done anything uptil now. If one has knowledge, they are responsible for it, they have to bear its weight. He knew everything & still did not do anything about it? Honestly, I was unable to digest anything he spilled a moment ago. Nevertheless I listened patiently because I recall, He is indeed the Italian mafia's boss. And if unlike his cold & secretive demeanour, he did not react violently to any of my reactions. I may have been testing his patience all along. He had no reason to lie. He knows everything about us. He knows I have a sister. He told me story I must accept as truth. But can I? Afterall, the death of mamma & papa has been brought to the surface. Even with Elen we haven't discussed the fact that we deeply feel lack of parental care. We miss their presence. 

I'm sure he misses his mom too. Even though it might be considered illegal to consider your pain & cry a little over it here. But I must admit, that him, out loud. Getting the veil off of all truth makes me respect him. I will never acknowledge that but that's another thing. He must or must have not finally gotten everything off his chest after admitting though. He suddenly appears by my side, dismissing his men that stood beside & in front by a single flick of his finger. "we will do it together, l'irruzione dell'alba nella mia vita, I promise to bring down every fucking human who was in this. I promise but make sure word about it doesn't slip your little mouth okay?", he finished & I nodded affirming he had nothing to worry about. Pride filled my heart warmly as I finally looked out for a new beginning.  

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il mio vivace - my lively, l'irruzione dell'alba nella mia vita - the break of dawn in my life

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