Give It Up
here's to friends, enemies, and broken hearts.
i've got you as long as i want.
but you've taken my will.
you've stolen my love.
your toast i now realize,
was simply about us.
my best friend,
my worst enemy,
the one who broke my heart...
where do i go from here?
i want to drink and smoke
and crash cars.
i want to break all the rules
i want to do all the things that i know will
disappoint you.
i want to break myself of you,
but i know that i can't.
i know that the next time i see you,
i'll probably take your face in my hands once more,
and i'll steal the sweet flavor of your lips...
i know that there's nothing either of us can do
to break this.
to stop ourselves.
you are my every addiction.
i fight, but can't let go.
let go.
please let me go.
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imagine it. such a beautiful blessing in such a dull disguise. how will we know that this is what we're looking for? how will i know where you are? think of it. there are no words to come later, i am left speechless in my demise. i knew it would happen, i knew it was coming. you were coming. you've been following me, chasing me, stalking me...i don't know how long it's been. the hands on the clock are endless. they stretch into all folds of time and space. they tell me that this goes on forever, and they tell me that it's never been...
it's only in my head, i know it's only in my head. but i see it, repeating. over and over and over again. when does it stop?
stop.
start again. over again. give me something new to mold, give me something beautiful to destroy. i need to feel strong again. i need to be held in place...i need you to mold me, to destroy me, to rebuild me...
find me in my hiding place and take me over once more. i need to feel you so that i can feel at all.
This Too, Shall Pass?
i'm trying to figure out how to get this cold feeling to pass. it's that feeling you get when you know things aren't right. and i fear, not fear. i know. i know that this feeling is you. you are the cold in the pit of my stomach. you are that empty feeling in my heart.
but i can't fill it up on my own. and no one else does the job like you do. you make me feel whole the same as you make me so empty. and you are warmer than heat has ever felt...it is effortless for you to make me happy, yet you somehow manage to make me more miserable than anyone who's trying could ever do.
I Should Tell You
don't feed me with your sad smiles and sad eyes. i'm expecting you to.
be unpredictable for me.
i only want to be heard. to be felt. to be loved.
i only want you to tell me the truth. the truth of your feelings. because i know you've been hiding.
i know that i'm not just some girl to you.
you make it so obvious. then try to hide.
i don't understand you, yet i understand everything you do.
this is the strangest place i've ever been.
in my head and yours at the same time.
they tell me to be careful.
they tell me that i'm thinking too much.
they tell me that i'm putting too much into you.
they tell me they don't want me hurt.
but don't they see how much i hurt when you're not around?
don't they remember what i was like when you left?
don't they know that the things i say are true? why would i say them if they were only lies?
why would i say that we're here because of each other if i didn't believe it true?
but i don't wish to scare you.
i do believe that you think the same things i do, but i think that you're too scared to acknowledge it.
i'm scared to acknowledge it.
don't you understand? i feel for you like i've felt for no one.
i feel like i couldn't do much without you.
we made promises to each other.
we told each other that we'd never have to be without each other.
we told each other that no matter what happened, we'd at least stay friends.
we've stayed more than friends.
you can't pretend that you don't feel more than what friends feel.
you can't pretend that when you kiss me it means nothing.
because you show it on your face. i know i'm more than nothing to you.
and you've never been nothing to me.
I'll Be Home Soon
my heart is full and heavy
but my tears are those of pain.
