Promised You Heaven

Chapter 24-Impossible

Josh's POV

I held Rhiannon was we watched tv in my room.  She would fall asleep every now and again and then she'd wake up and we'd talk about everything but the situation at hand.  I knew she was trying to push it off as long as possible.  I didn't blame her, it could potentially change everything. I tried to be patient but the longer the day went on the more antsy I got.  The sun was setting and the colors from the orange sky were peaking in through the window. 

"How are you feeling?" I asked, her head was resting on my stomach, she turned to face me,

"Alright," She paused and I could tell she was thinking about something, "How many tests did you get?"

"5" I replied

"5!" She laughed, "Josh we only need like 2" I grinned, 

"I just want to be really sure."

"You're crazy" She said as she slowly stood up.  I watched her closely in case she was still dizzy.  She had managed to drink her smoothie and then later on ate some toast.  "Where are they?"

"You want to do it now?" I asked surprised, but trying to hide my excitement. 

"I guess, might as well" She shrugged, "We have that work meeting tomorrow and I need to know before then, because it could change things."  I nodded as I stood up, I walked into the bathroom and took them out of the paper bag,

"These were expensive, but they are supposed to be super accurate" I said as I held up the digital one I had gotten.  She took it from my hand and took a deep breath as she looked at it. 

"Thanks for getting them," She said as she started opening the box.  She looked at me before shooing me out of the bathroom with her hand.  I was kind of taken aback because she didn't want me to stay, but then I remembered who I was dealing with.  She closed the door and I couldn't be still, I paced around the room.  A few moments later she opened the door and nonchalantly walked past me and back over to the bed, getting under the covers and flipping through the channels.  I looked at her confused

"What did it say?" I asked

"Oh, it takes a few minutes.  I'll check it later." She said as her eyes remained on the tv.  I was kind of annoyed at how she was acting but I knew this was just her way of processing because she was scared.  I walked into the bathroom and stared at the test, the little loading symbol spinning on the screen.  I began anxiously tapping my fingers on the counter as I waited.  Then it happened, my mouth fell open as the word popped up on the screen.  Pregnant. I felt a smile grow on my face as I covered my mouth.  My heart had never beat this fast in my life.  I took a few deep breaths, reeling in my emotions so I could tell her without seeming too excited.   I opened the door and looked at her, she was beautiful, and she was pregnant with something that was part me, and part her.  I felt tears starting to form in my eyes but I blinked them away,

"The results are up." I said as I peeked my head out of the bathroom door.  She looked over to me with her 'I'm fine' face, but I could see right through it, she was terrified.  "Do you want to see it now or would you like me to leave it in here."

"I can tell by the way you are looking at me," She said, her expression getting softer, "It's positive." I said nothing but nodded with a small smile, apparently I hadn't hidden my emotions well enough.   I walked over and sat next to her, placing my hand on her thigh. 

"What are you feeling right now?" I asked, thinking that her talking about it might help.

"I'm really not sure.  At the moment I'm mostly feeling scared." She admitted, which I knew was hard for her.