RishMi/ ShaYush One-Shots

RishMi- Pain

Lakshmi's P.O.V.

"Tum mujhe yaha kyu le kar aaiye ho?" (Why did you bring me here?) I snapped at Rishi pushing him away as he shoved us together in the jewelry storeroom, glaring at him I crossed my arms, "Konse haq se le kar aaiyo ho Rishi!" (What right do you have to bring me here Rishi!)

"Tum abhi bhi meri patni ho." (You are still my wife.) He snapped back, "Mujhe bas panch minute chahiye Lakshmi," (I just need five minutes Lakshmi.)

"Mujhe tumse nahi baat karni Rishi!" (I don't want to talk to you Rishi!)

"Karni padegi!" (Well you have to)

"Zabar daasti hai kya?" (Forcefully?)

"Hai hain." Rishi said firmly, "Hain zabar daasti." (Yeah, forcefully)

Breathing heavily I shook my head, "Aur kar bhu kya sakte ho tum Rishi? Dukh deyna to aata hain tumhe, aur dukh he deyte aaiye ho." (What else can you do Rishi! You only know how to hurt me, and that's all you have been doing anyway.)

"Dukh? Meine sirf tumhe dukh diya hai Lakshmi?" (Pain? I have only given you pain Lakshmi?)

"Toh, itna haaran kyu horahe ho? Tumhe nahi pata ke tumne mera saath kya kiya?" (So? Why are you so suprised Rishi? You don't know what you did?)

He groaned in frustration pacing in front of me, "Impossible." 

Crossing my arms I clench my jaw looking away from me, "Mein hi pagal hoon. Mujhe hi haad se zayda bura lag raha Malishka bilkul sahi kerahi thi. Tumhe kabhi meri feelings ke kadar hi nahi ki Lakshmi. Mein yaha maraja raha hoon, isi tension mein, ke tum-" (I'm stupid. I was feeling guilty more than I should have. Malishka was completely right. You never cared about my feelings. I am dying with my guilt, worried that you-)

"Mein kya Rishi?" (What?)

"Ke tum dukh mein hoon. Mujhe laga tha, ke haan mein jo abhi kiya woh bohot galat tha, mujhe Malihka ke baaton mein nahi aana chahiye tha per ab...tum toh sab kuch boolgi Lakshmi. Meine sirf tumhe dukh nahi diya tha, tumhe khushiya bhi de thi!"     (That you are in pain. I thought that yeah, I hurt you with what I did, and I shouldn't have listened to Malishka but you forgot everything. I didn't just give you pain, I have your happiness too.)

"Kabhi dil se kuch kiya tha mera liya?" (Did you ever do it because you wanted to?) I asked aggressively, "Tumne jo kuch bhi kiya tha, woh apna jhoot chupna ke liya kiya tha Rishi!" (Whatever you did, was to hide your lies Rishi!)

"BAS yaar Lakshmi."  (STOP Lakshmi!) He yelled, walking over to me he grabbed my arms aggressively pulling me close to him, furrowing my eyebrows I flinched in pain, "Stop talking, ab mein boloo ga aur tum suno gi." (Stop talking, now I'm going to speak and you will listen.)

Gasping I looked up into his eyes, they were filled with anger, frusturation, and guilt..."Tum mujhe kabse kuch bhi boli jaa rahi ho aur mein sun raha hoon. Per ab nahi. Us din mandar mein bhi, tum kya kuch nahi bol ke gi mujhe, mera baara mein aur mein chup raha kyu ki haq tha tum ko. Dokha diya tha meine, jo bhi kuch tumne bolo tha mein deserve karta tha per ab...ab tum had paar karahi ho. Tum mujhe tumari life ka sab se bada villian bana rahi ho jab mein villan nahi hoon. Mein Rishi hoon, wohi Rishi hoon  jise tum pyaar karti thi, wohi Rishi hoon jise tum baar baar apni jaan per kehle ke baacha thi thi...mein wohi Rishi hoon, joh tumhari aankhon mein aason nahi dekh sakta tha...aur mein wohi Rishi hoon, jiski duniya roshan hoja thi thi tumhari smile ke saath."               (You have been saying what ever you want to say to and I have been listening. But not anymore. That day at the temple, you said such harsh things, about me but I stayed quiet because you had the right to. I cheated on you, whatever you said I deserved, but now you are crossing your limits. You are making me the biggest villian in your life when Im not the villian. I'm Rishi, the same Rishi that you loved, the same Rishi, who you have saved over and over again not caring about yourself, the same Rishi that couldnt see tears in your eyes and Im still the same Rishi who's world would light up by your smile.)

Tears blurred my eyes listening to his words.  "Tum woh Rishi nahi ho," I whispered as a tear slide down my cheek, "Kyu ke agar tum woh Rishi hota toh Malisha neecha mujhe aisa baazit nahi kar parti. Tum karda hota meri liya Rishi, per ab mujhe koi shikayaat bhi nahi hain kyu ke mujhe pata hain ke tum use pyaar karte ho."

Rishi moved closer to me, "Mein wohi hoon." (I'm still the same)  His grip loosened, "Mein kabhi tumhe chodh ke ga hi nahi tha Lakshmi. Haan, meine gaalti ki, haan meine tumhe dukh diya...per mere iraada nahi tha." (I never left you Lakshmi. I admit I made a mistake, I admit I hurt you but it was never my intention to do that.)

"Iraada?" (Intention?)  I say quietly, pushing away from him, "Rishi agar tumhara iraada nahi tha toh mere ye haal hain...agar iraada hota toh kya hota mera?"(Rishi, if you hurting me wasnt your intention, and Im this broken that what would happen if you actually wanted to hurt me?)

"Lakshmi," He said helplessly

"Nahi Rishi." I shook my head, "Meine aaj suba bhi kaha tha. Tum aapne raaste mein aapne raaste...tum Malishka ke saath kush raho aur mein Shalu aur Bani ke liya jeeyo gi." (Like I said this morning, you go your way and I'll go my way. You say happy with Malishka and I'll live for Shalu and Bani.) Holding  my hands together I say, "Please Rishi, mujhe bakash do." (Please Rishi, leave me alone.)

"Lakshmi, please-"

"Aaaj ke baad mere samne maat aana Rishi, aur mein bhi koshish karogi ke mein tumhara smane nah aaoon." I firmly say before turning around ready to leave the room but Rishi grabbed my hand turning me around, his eyes were filled with tears now too.  (Don't come in front of me ever again Rishi and I'll try to do the same.)

"Please aise maat kaho, please ek baar meri baat samaj ne koshish karo Lakshmi. Jo bhi hua nahi hona chahiye tha, hum...hum dost ban sakte hain. Per mujhe aise apni zindagi se nikalo maat." (Please don't say that. Please just try to understand what I am trying to say, whatever happened shouldn't have happened...we can still be friends...but dont kick me out of your life.)

"Tumne humari beech mein kuch rehne hi nahi diya dost bane ki liya..." (There is nothing left between us...)  I responded shaking his hand off, "Sab kuch katam kardiya tumne Rishi...dosti mein baarosa hona chahiye, vishwas hona chahiya...per jab tumne kcuh vishwas aur baarosa karne ke liyak kuch chodha hi nahi toh hum dost kaise ban sakta hain?" (You destroyed everything Rishi...Friendship is based on trust and respect. If there isnt anything left to trust or respect then how can we be friends Rishi?)

"L-Lakshmi," 

"Bas Rishi," I stop him, "Jitni baar hum baat karega unta hi dard deyanga ek dusra ko..." (The more we talk to each other the more we will hurt each other.)

His breath hitched "Aur mein tumhe dard nahi dena chaahti...hum ek dusra ek leeya baana hi nahi the, gaalti se aagi thi mein tumhara aur uske beech. Tum...tum kuch rehna, tumhari khushi ke saahara mein raahat se aaga baar jaogi...dard jo nahi deyangi ek dusra ko." (And I don't want to hurt you...we were never meant to be together, I came in between you two. Just stay happy, and seeing your happiness I'll move on peacefully...since we won't hurt each other anymore.)

Rishi wiped his tears away, "Tumhe laagta hain ke hum sek dusra se door rahke kush rehega?" (You think that we will stay happy without each other?)

"Dard nahi hoga Rishi," (It won't hurt anymore Rishi,)

"Dard hoga Lakshmi...bohot hoga...kyu ki tum bhi jaanti ho aur mein bhi jaanta hoon...hum ek dura ke leeya hi bana hain...bas mile galat time pe..." (We will be in pain Lakshmi...in a lot of pain..because you and I both know that we are made for each other...we just met at the wrong time.

Biting my lip I try to control my tears, "Bye Rishi." I whisper walking past him and out the door. 

Haan bana hain hum ek dusra ek liya per...ab sab katam hoga...aur katam karne wala tum the Rishi...sirf tum. (We are made for each other...but everything is finished now, and the one who finished everything is you Rishi...only you.)