✯𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐫𝐲✯|Billie Eilish!

can we talk later?

Chapter 12
"Serenity.. Serenity... I know your in there, I watch you run in here" I heard a little laugh... a familiar laugh...
I opened up the door and see... billie.
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-Billies pov-

I'll be real honest with you. I haven't been the same since serenity broke up with me. I've been really depressed and my anger has went up more than it should of. I'm no longer friends with xen and memi, they left the house so I'm basically just by my self.

I haven't been in contact with my brother since the last time me and serenity saw eachy other  which was months ago. I would say I stopped slanging drugs but I haven't. But me slanging drugs isn't really helping with the bills so I had to get another job.

I work at Jamba Juice inside the mall.. and I've been working here for two months. I got expelled from school so, there's no graduating for me.. I just have to get my GED in a year. I got into so many fights at that school after me and serenity broke up. My anger is impossible to stop.

I saw serenity and her mom and londyn walk into the mall, I was quite excited to see them... but then I say arsenio with serenity... I didn't really like that.. it didn't make sense to me because nio was the same person to say "they are gonna take your pimpin' away; they aren't good for you" and now their standing there holding hands with my ex girlfriend.

I watched them argue from the Juice station. I saw her break down as she walked away. I still care very much about her... so I took my break early.  I came to check on her. I needed to check on... them.
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I heard her sigh. She came out the bathroom and rolled her eyes. "Are you stalking me now?" She let out a little laugh which makes me laugh. I looked at her cry. Her eyes were blood shot red. I hated seeing her cry, even though I was the root of all of her problems.

I went to wipe her eyes but she flinched. I stood there in a state of shock. "I'm.. I'm sorry I just wanted to wipe your eyes..." I say backing up giving her space.

She stood there in silence, we looked at each other. "You know.. I work at Jamba Juice now" I say. 'Good for you.. I guess' she said shrugging. "So... are you and nio a thing? Now? That's totally fine I'm not asking in like-" I say but she cuts me off.

"No. Me and nio are not a thing. We just came to by some clothes for the baby but we got into an argument which led me here" she says. I tilted my head. "What was the argument about?" I say.

She sighs shaking her head laughing. "... you" she says sniffling. I let out an oh before it got silent again. I sigh and spoke up,

"you know... I've been contemplating if I should text you or not... I remember you telling me when I was ready to speak up and talk and take up my responsibilities then to text you".

"I do wanna talk to you. When can speak in public incase you dont feel comfortable around me, or we can speak in private if you want to its completely up to you.." I say putting my hands up.

"We can talk in private.. just let me know when you get off work and I can see what I can do" she says with a little smile.. it was a sad smile. But I understood her pain.

"...hows... how's the baby?"

".. you wanna know something funny. The baby kicked for me once... and the baby hasn't done it since"

We both laugh a little."Do you mind... if I touch your stomach?" I asked. she was hesitant for once... hell I'd be hesitant too, but she soon enough let me touch her stomach.

I walked over to her and Crouched a little bit. I was hesitant because I haven't felt.. nor held her stomach before so I was kinda scared and shaky. I put on of my hands under her stomach and the other on the side.

I felt a couple of kicks. I sighed in disbelief and for some odd reason a little tear came from my eye. Serenity groaned for a moment.  I look up to ask her if everything is okay.
"They baby has never done this much kicking before its crazy actually" she laughs.

She groans in agony a few more times before some one came in the restroom yelling "What the fuck are you doing to her". I got pushed down from serenity stomach and I heard so bickering and arguing. 

"Why the fuck did you push her?!"

"I thought she was fucking hurting you! I have every right to think that?"

"She was just feeling the fucking baby bro what the fuck why would you even push her?!"

I got up off the floor and dust my clothes off. I looked up to still see nio and serenity still arguing. "I wasn't hurting her. She asked Me if I wanted to feel the baby, I said yes. The baby started kicking, serenity got a little groany  no one got hurt" I say.

Nio scoffed in disbelief "easy for you to fucking". "Listen man I don't know what you and serenity got on I could care less but I saw her crying and I came to see if she was alright. Plus when did yall even become friends?" I ask in confusion.

"We've been friends billie" serenity said walking up to the restroom mirror. I sigh "oh really? Cause last time I checked NIO you didn't even like her when we first started dating. in fact you hated her so much to the point we're you thought she was going ruin the friend group and such and such!"

"Well people change billie!"

"Do they huh? Well yeah they do you've changed! left me never even said good fucking bye you just up and left, what type of friend does that?!"

"I DONT EVEN CONSIDER YOU MY FRIEND BILLIE. I NEVER CONSIDERED YOU SOME ONE CLOSE TO ME.  I'VE KNOWN YOU SINCE WE WERE 10. I DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU AS A CHILD BUT YOU ARE NOT THE SAME... AND YOU WILL NEVER BE THE SAME"

"I growed up and changed"

"Yeah that's for fucking sure. You growed up and became this... violent ass person.. I don't know you anymore and I really wish you were the same as the kid I knew you as"

"OH well you know nio people fucking made me this way.  You don't think I miss... the old me? You don't think I miss the way I acted before all of this shit? you think I wanted to do those things I did when I did them? I have a lot of fucking regrets okay?" I say..

"Well atleast your self aware. Maybe you'll be self aware enough to turn your self in sooner or later?" Nio screamed. Me and serenity stood there in silence. 

"Don't look at me that way... we know what you did to x.. him" nio said to me smacking their teeth. "I don't know what your talking about arsenio" I say shakily.

"Can we just leave... please. I'm ready to fucking go" serenity said. I agreed with Serenity but nio kept pushing this situation.  "No, no no I want you to admit to what you fucking did."

"LETS FUCKING GO" serenity said pushing nio out the restroom. She looked at me and slanted her smile. "I will text you when I get the chance... okay?" She said silently.  I nod my head yeah before she walked out.

It took me a couple of minutes to recollect myself. What if nio starts to go around telling everyone that I killed xavier... I mean I did... but it was because of... i... I don't know.

I have to figure out how to make nio shut up about this situation... I gotta find out something..... quick and easy.

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(A/n I'll come in and edit this shit later)