The 8 Soulmates (BTS poly ot7xy/n)

시작 Chapter 19

"Thanks see you next shift! Y/n waved goodbye to the chef, happily walking into her apartment.
Work had gone by decently and now all she could think about was pestering one of her soulmates to let her sleepover.
  Knowing how nice it had felt to cuddle with Yoongi, she wasn't sure she wanted to sleep alone from this point on.

She laughed to herself, feeling silly about how happy they could make her even though a lot  was happening between them.
  Both Jin and Namjoon should be in their apartment though, but to be on the safe side she'd send a quick text to see if either was busy studying tonight.

The elevator came to a stop at her floor and she was greeted by a tired looking Jimin who was leaning on the wall.
  The same place she remembers seeing him and Hoseok when she first moved in. Thinking back to it her smile only widened. That'd be a funny memory to tell in the future.

"How was work?" Jimin pulled her in for a hug, nuzzling his face in her hair.
"It was good, not too busy.." Y/n pulled back a bit, keeping his arms around her waist, hers wrapped around his neck.

"Mm good to hear." He sent her a smile, lightly kissing the tip of her nose.
"You didn't have to wait, it's late you should be asleep by now."

Jimin sent her a smile, shrugging his shoulders. "I wanted too, we.. haven't talked much in the last day or so.."

She nodded. It'd been a little tense earlier during school but she was just basking in the warmth she felt from his attention at the moment. Feeling happy he had reached out first to talk thing out and mend their misunderstandings.

Y/n's eyes flicked to his lips, the ones that always looked so soft and perfect. No one could deny how well Jimin always managed to look without even trying.

  He caught her eyes, glancing towards her own lips as they both leaned in slowly.
Y/n desperately wanted to know what it'd feel like to kiss him, someone who was always so confident but also someone she had come to know as kindhearted, doing anything he could to make the important people in his life happy or proud.

Taking a leap of faith, she leaned in more, initiating their kiss.

Jimin pulled back suddenly, unwrapping his arms from Y/n and turning his head towards the hall.

She stumbled back a little, almost falling from the force to which he pulled away and the shock from the sudden action. Had she done something wrong?
  Y/n looked to her shoes, suddenly feeling self conscious. That was the first time she'd tried to initiate a full bond.. initiate a kiss..
  Maybe she should leave that to her soulmates. Maybe none of them wanted her to make the first move.. she was the only girl in their bond..

Her thoughts spiralled a bit.

  A seed of hurt started to grow in her chest, was Jimin still unsure of her? They'd partially bonded so he couldn't hate her, right?

"Sorry.." he whispered, taking a shaky step towards her, brushing the hair from her shoulder and gently leaning down to place a kiss on top of her head.
  Y/n watched his reaction, looking just as hurt as him.

"I can't complete the bond with you before Tae.. I'm sorry" his words came out even quieter than before.

"You.. what.." Y/n tried to grasp her thoughts.

They were all soulmates to eachother, was it really that important for Taehyung not to be last? They'd already found out he was technically the first partial bond. Wasn't that enough?

Y/n didn't want to be forced to bond with someone she wasn't ready too, she'd told them she wanted things to play out naturally.. Kissing Taehyung still didn't feel like something natural to her.

"Why would Taehyung be upset?" There were so many more questions Y/n wanted to ask, but she didn't have the breath to say it.

"He cares Y/n, it'd hurt him to be the last one to fully bond with you- and it doesn't matter to me-" Y/n cut off his sentence.

"It doesn't matter to you when or if we fully bond?" Her words came out cold.

"That's not what I mean and you should know that Y/n." Jimin's voice seemed to match her own.

But how was she supposed to know anything? Soulmate bonding was something they all experienced more than her. They had years together. Years to understand each other, to grow.

Y/n had hardly met them if she was honest with herself, and there was still so much about them she didn't know.

"Should I know that Jimin? Do I know that much about any of you??" He could hear the hurt in her voice, and feel the pain through their half bond.

He cringed in on himself, at not only that, but the fact that if he could feel this so intensely, the others probably could too.

"What's going on out here?" Namjoon's voice came from one of the rooms, Jin opening a neighbouring door and also stepping out.

"Are you okay? We felt your bond.." Jin asked cautiously.
  He wasn't a stranger in having to occasionally tip toe around his soulmates feelings in order to understand a situation more before adding in his two cents.

Y/n paused before answering. She definitely didn't feel okay. On top of Taehyung's drama surrounding her, still having to talk it out with Jungkook and Hoseok, and now Jimin pushing her away from what she could only conclude as Taehyung's pride, how could she be okay?

"Can I sleep in your apartment Joon?" Y/n asked shyly, shutting her eyes tight and hoping that he wouldn't reject her like Jimin.

His eyebrows furrowed together in thought, trying to understand what had happened before he and Jin opened their apartment doors.

"Of course you can, you don't need to ask." He replied stretching an arm out to her.

"Apparently I do need to ask some people." She replied, turning away from Jimin and shoving her face in Namjoons chest.

His arm wrapped tightly around her, and he could feel the shakiness of her breath. The shakiness of her whole body as if she was holding back sobs.

"Y/n- you-" Jimin was shushed by Jin, who took him and lead him inside his own apartment quickly, giving Y/n her space.

No doubt he'd expect a full explanation from Jimin later on, but for now it seemed like him and Namjoon both had soulmates to comfort.

"Hey, hey it's alright. You're okay." Namjoon whispered comforting words and phrases as he pulled Y/n closer into him and eventually into his apartment.

She pulled away briefly to take off her shoes and coat, mentally exhausted.

"Sorry, I just.." Namjoon shushed her, wrapping her tightly in his arms and letting her know without words that she didn't need to explain anything at the moment.

"Take a breath. We can talk about whatever that was tomorrow." He insisted. "Just let me comfort you for now little one."

A/n: FIXED IT? Maybe?? Hopefully it'll let me update more and this won't happen again!