A Part Of Enhypen (Fanfic) (Completed)

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I took a deep breath and,
"I don't think I've had the easiest childhood... My parents well... My dad left me and my mom when I was young... It was at the carnival... He left me near the carousel and I never saw him again... It took my mom some time to find me and that’s why I don't enjoy carnivals...
After my dad left us, all I had was Crystal and mom by my side...
My school days were pretty tough too...
People bullied me, teased me a lot, made fun of me, called me names...
They made comments about me...

"I'll forgive you only cause you're hot... "
"You're pretty, but your personality sucks... "
"Chin up honey, sit straight and be pretty, that's your only job..."
"You're just a pretty doll... You're nothing without your body and looks sweetheart..."
"All you're supposed to do is be pretty and keep quiet..."

And many more comments... I always tried my best and ignore them, I used to stay alone almost always... Only Crystal knows the stuff I've been through... I never had the courage to talk to my mom about all that...
I started getting anxiety attacks every time I was around many people... I started feeling suffocated if I didn't know someone...
I started passing out often and had to go to the hospital or the nurses office too many times... That's why I don't like hospitals cause each time I came back to school... They'd get to know I was at the hospital and make it into stupid rumors and I hated that...
I just didn't wanna go through anything anymore...
So I just decided to put an end to everything at the very first place it started...
The school...
So I tried taking my life, but somebody stopped me...
I still don't know who it was, all I remember is that he was really tall compared to the others I'd seen in school so far and he had a special one of a kind hoodie, with the date 30-11-2020 on it...
That's all I remember about him...
He pushed a letter into my hand and ran away and I didn't see him again I guess...
I opened the letter and...
"You're doing well, trust me... I've seen you, you're doing perfectly well... The people who judge and bully you, they're just jealous of you cause you're amazing... Don't give up... You can't do that... Go for your Dreams... Just do it... You'll be grateful one day that you didn't end everything... I'll always be rooting for you..."

That was the letter the guy gave me...
It felt comforting... For the first time I felt comforted... By a random person...
And that was when I decided...
I picked myself up, dusted myself and made my mind... That I'd start again... Even if I failed I'd start again... Even if it took me a hundred thousand tries... I'd start again... That was what I promised myself... And well here I am now..." I said and shrugged looking up to stop the tears from flowing...

"I'm glad you took my advice!!" Heeseung said hugging me taking me by surprise...
"HUH??" we all spoke out confused...