Silent songbird

Chapter 6

I was standing on the poarch, waiting for someone to open the door. I knocked again but still no answer. I stayed there for five more minutes, probably looking like the dumbest person of all, standing in front of this big mansion just to see someone I made suffer so much. I am so stupid. I should just go back to my house and forget about her. But how could I forget her? It would be selfish to forget her like that. Wouldn't it!? Plus, I don't want to forget her. I realised it way too late but she was my first and only love.

The door never opened for me. I waited thirty minutes by knocking every five minutes and no one answered even if the car was in the entrance and I saw the boy from before staring at me sometimes while I stood there. I went home after those thirty minutes and decided that the next day I would come back and wait even longer until someone opened the door to me. I went to bed early to be awake sooner and make sure I looked presentable in case her father opened. I don't know why I wanted to look so acceptable. Maybe to prove that at least I changed a bit.

When I woke up I went directly to eat breakfast and did my hair in a ponytail with only the top part of my crow feathers looking hairs. I was about to get out of the appartement but my mother's head appeared in the door frame of the living room which was the room just beside the entrance. She stared at me and looked me up and down before getting completely out of the room where she was and approached me slowly as if she had done something bad and needed me to cover her before anyone could see. I asked her what she needed me for and she sighed before asking why she would need me for anything. I stared at her emotionless and she finally told me that she needed me to go do the groceries since she had to do something important. I asked her what and she said that she and her friends were about to go to a bingo event and that they would come after dinner at our home. I told her I had better things to do then to go do groceries for her and her stupid friends and she told me that if I got out now, she would not let me in before I had the groceries. I simply told her that I would just not come back then and went out before slamming the door shut.

I was finally in front of the door, for the second time in not even twenty-four hours. I knocked and waited. Two minutes later I pressed the bell and waited. I knocked again. Rang the bell again. Knocked, rang, knocked, rang, knocked, saw the boy from last time in the door frame, rang again and then realised that the boy was standing there and defeguring me with a grumpy looking face. I just looked at him as if I never interacted with another human being and he finally asked me what I was here for. I said I was looking for his sister and he only said no and closed the door. I knocked again but then it wasn't the little boy anymore but Mathieu. He looked even scarier then as a child. Probably because I knew that what I did was wrong now so I knew that he wouldn't hesitate to spit all of his hate on me. I looked at him and waited for this tall man to say something but that something never came. I realised it and said that my name was Jeremy and that I would like to talk with Amylee. He said no just like the boy but before closing the door he told me to go away since she wasn't even living there. I was confused since Amylee didn't seem like the type of person to live by herself. I went back home after some time because it was clear now that no one would help me find her here. I would have to find her myself. When I arrived at my house my mother didn't let me in at first. I told her grocery stores were closed so I couldn't go now and she told me that next time I treated her like that I would have to sleep outside. I went to bed early once again.

I woke up on the beach again but there wasn't only Amylee this time. There was a little black haired girl. She looked just like Amylee but her hair was short and not long like Amylee's. There was another girl that was a little shorter than the two others. She had long blond hair. It took me multiple seconds before realising that the blond girl was Rosalie and the other one was Maoka. Two of Amylee's friends from elementary school. I ran after them but then realised that Amylee might be with one of them and I remembered Maoka's mother was a sign language teacher. I also remembered the teacher asking Amylee if she knew sign language and her telling she didn't really knew it. She might be there to learn it since Maoka was like a sister to her and her mother and Amylee were really close. This was the only place I could see her at. I then woke up happier than ever. Next weekend I will go to Maoka's house. I needed train tickets since she moved away really far from here and would also need some money and a good bag in case I would need to walk. I made a list and decided I would find all I need in the current week.

As decided, the weekend came and I was ready with my money, train ticket and bag full of blankets and water bottles. I felt as if I was going on an expedition when all I was about to do was take the train and walk in some empty fields for a day. It wasn't that big of a deal. I made sure the bag was stable on my back and walked to the nearest train station.