Ever since seeing Eric Nam live in concert, I've been infatuated with the man. All I could ever want is to date Eric. Even if it doesn't last, the experience is well worth it. This story is about how a girl fell in love with one of her favorite sing...
That next morning, I'm going to be honest, I wasn't feeling the best. I ran to the bathroom that morning and started throwing up. I don't know what's wrong with me and I'm imagining the absolute worst case scenario. Eric wakes up, hearing me vomiting in the bathroom. "Babe, you alright in there?" Eric asked. "No." I cry. "I'm coming in." Eric said. "I don't know what's wrong. Yesterday, I was completely fine." I said, tears streaming down my face. "Shit." Eric said. "What?" I asked. "Do you think you're. . . Pregnant?" Eric asked. "I don't know. We need to buy a test to see." I said. "If you are, it only just happened yesterday. There's no way it'd show up on a test. We need to wait a couple weeks before we check." Eric said. "Okay, if you say so." I said. "Just know, if you are what I think you are, I'll never leave your side. I'll always be there for you." Eric said. "I know you will." I said.
About two weeks go by. I'm back home in America now. My fall semester in Korea starts on September 5th, so I'll need to be flying back then the last week of August. It's August 27th today. I'll be flying out to Korea on Wednesday, August 31st. I have 3 days until I fly back to Korea to start college at Hanyang University. I'm honestly both excited and nervous at the same time. I'll be studying Korean at one of the most prestigious universities in all of Korea. I paid my tuition, figured out my health insurance situation, and bought my one-way plane ticket. Everything's ready to go. Meanwhile, I still don't know if I'm really pregnant or not. I've been too busy getting ready to study in Korea that I completely forgot to take a pregnancy test.
The next day, I go to Walmart and buy a pregnancy test. I buy a ClearBlue pregnancy test. I go to the bathroom and take the pregnancy test. After 30 minutes, the results come in. The pregnancy test reads:
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When I read the test, I couldn't believe my eyes. I thought it somehow was faulty, so I took another one just to make sure. When the second one said the same thing, I know what to do now. I have to call Eric right now and tell him the news. Eric told me that he's in LA right now, working on his next album. Hopefully that can be put on hold because there are bigger things happening right now. "Eric." I said sternly. "Yes, baby?" Eric asked. "I took a pregnancy test." I said. "What did it say?" Eric asked. "It says pregnant. I'm pregnant, Eric. I leave for Korea in 2 days. What am I supposed to do?" I asked. "Go to Korea. Do your study abroad program. When it's over, come straight to LA. I have a rental house out here. You can stay here with me after you're done studying in Korea." Eric said. "By the time I'm done, I'll be 3 months pregnant. Would I be okay to fly home?" I asked. "Pfft, I have no idea. We'll just have to see. I've got to go. I love you so much baby. Have fun in Korea, and don't stress the pregnancy too much. I'll always be by your side." Eric said. "Okay. Love you, bye." I said.
2 days later, I'm now on a plane to Seoul. Once arriving in Seoul, I take a taxi to my dorm room on Hanyang University campus. I walk into my dorm and it's quite the nice place. I wrote down in my phone calendar when my baby should be due. This is just my approximation, so it might not be entirely accurate. I calculate that the baby will be due around May 8, 2023. I have all these months to prepare to be a mother at 19. I can't believe that's even a thought that would come to my mind. I would have never thought that I'd ever become a mother when I'm 19. I guess life is just full of surprises.
In the mean time, I'll try to focus on studying Korean. I'm in beginner classes, starting from square one. I took a fluency test one day and I got an 80% on it. My Korean is still fairly good for not studying it for a while. I'm just glad to be back in Korea to study Korean. I'm hoping by the end of studying here that my Korean will be conversational. Or at least better than it is now. I've also got Eric who can help me with my Korean. I'm lucky to have someone who's fluent in both languages. I'm dating the best Korean tutor I know.
After my first day of classes, I go back to my dorm to relax for the remainder of the day. I sigh heavily, just thinking of what could possibly be next for Eric and I. We have a baby on the way and we're not even married yet. In our religious families, that doesn't fly very well. Having a baby out of wedlock is a huge no-no. We live in the 21st century, but unfortunately, our parents are old fashioned. I hope they can accept that this was a simple accident. That we'll learn for the next time. This baby will be a blessing to Eric and I. I can't wait to meet our baby. I just know they're going to be so cute.
