Dangerous Addiction M.R (T.N)

Eighteen - (edited)

"They got no idea about me and you"

Hours later, my mind walked me up to the astronomy tower. I hadn't eaten; I didn't even think about what was happening. I was in a trance; my body was there, but my mind was elsewhere. All I knew was that this was the first time in weeks I had sat down thinking about my mother. A few weeks ago, that was my only sadness, my only problem in life. Now, it's barely on my mind anymore. Of course, I think about her; it's impossible not to. But I haven't taken the time to think about the incident until now.

"Hi, mom." The stars shine bright in the night sky.

"I know you're up there somewhere. Watching me. I'm sorry..." I feel a lonely tear rolling down my cheeks.

"I have tried to be strong for you, Dad, Draco and everyone. But I don't think I can anymore." I sit there, taking in the moment as I see a shooting star in the dark sky. I want to think it's her, my mother.

"Rosie," I don't turn around, but I feel Theo approaching me.

"Rosie, I know you can hear me if you ignore me. That's okay, I guess." He is right behind me, and I wipe away the tears on my cheeks.

"Are you crying? Hey Rosie. Look at me," he sits down beside me, grabbing my chin so I would look at him. The pain in my chest as his eyes meet mine is a feeling I cannot explain; it is difficult. Impossible almost

"Why are you up here, crying all by yourself?" He stares down at me, and all of the strength I have been trying to hold inside me for so long is gone. I fall apart right in front of him. Right in front of the boy I used to love, the one I thought would be the one. Theo stares at me, my tears rolling down my cheeks before he embraces me with a hug, holding me close to him.

"It is okay, love. I am here." I fall into his chest, not caring about the past or present. Right now, it is just me and him. It is us.

"Rosie? Please tell me what's going on. I can't see you like this; it breaks me." I stare into his eyes before they drop down to my hands. He stares at me; I can feel it. His intense gaze is like a fire breaking through the spell I have put up the last few months.

"I miss her. Do you miss her, Theo? Your mom?" He sighs, his hands dropping to mine, just holding them slightly.

"Every single day." I look away. His words are not what I want to hear, but it is what I need. Knowing that I will miss her every day, no matter how much I want it or not.

"Does it ever get easier? Am I weak?" He pulls me onto his lap, just holding me like always. Way before we even began to like each other, we always stayed close when one of us suffered pain. It helped. It helps.

"You are not weak, Rosie. But you are going through a lot right now. I am sorry I was absent; I should have been there." He leaves a peck on my forehead, and I face the night sky again.

"I think I saw her, the star." He doesn't say anything, and for a second, I regret what I said; maybe it is weird. Maybe everything in my life is just a delusion.

"I know it's weird," I mumble to myself, but loud enough for him to hear it.

"It's not weird; I think it's beautiful that you see her in the sky. She watches over you, Rosie. She is proud of you." I look up, noticing that golden smile on his lips already facing me.

"You think?" He nods faintly.

"I know she is, and so am I." I smiled a little, noticing how it was the first time.

"Thank you... I needed that," the silence takes over the room again, and I realise how much I appreciate it. I like the silence.

"Rosie, I know you dont want to hear it, but-"