Dangerous Addiction M.R (T.N)

Thirty two

It's okay not to feel okay sometimes, and to talk about it helps more than you think. My dms are always open🤍 Hope you like this chapter and don't forget to tell me your thoughts in the comments. Lots of love
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Timeline: September 1- September 12 (and letters)

July 14

Dear Mattheo,
My mother always forced me to start a letter like that. So I guess I'm still holding onto it. It's been two weeks since we last saw each other that night, and I think I wanted to give you space and let you write to me first, but that never happened, so here we are... Everything is fine here. Draco and I have been learning a bit of french. Of course, we only know the inappropriate words, but no one has to know about that. I miss home. It's a month and a half left until we all return to Hogwarts and begin our last year. It feels weird. It's been my home for six years, and now it's goodbye? I dont like endings or goodbyes. Maybe that's why ours was so hard for me? But it was only for now, right?
I should probably get something to eat now; everyone went swimming in the lake. I hope you are okay,

Love, Rosie.

August 10

Dear Mattheo,
I know I'm not supposed to write to you, you never answered my last letter. But I had a dream last night. My mother told me that I needed to be strong and that it was time to let go. I'm not sure what it meant. I need you, Mattheo, I'm slowly falling apart again, and I'm unsure how to handle it this time. Not without you. Is there a reason you never wrote me back? Maybe you never got the letter, stupid owl. Anyway, take care of yourself. I hope everything is okay back at home.

Yours, Rosie.

August 17

Dear Mattheo,
Draco is forcing me to stop writing. It's two weeks left until we head back to Hogwarts. You will be there, right? We never discussed if you were heading back and you acted weird last time. Please come back to me, love. I need you there. I need to see if you are okay. Because I'm not, at least not without you. I'm going back to England tomorrow, and I missed it. I should probably end this letter. I guess you won't answer. Take care of yourself, Mattheo, and please stay safe. I know our lives are not accessible right now, but one day everything will be okay, and we can live the life we want. I'm fighting until then for that day, take care.

Rosie.

September 1

R O S IE

I'm slowly losing my shit this summer. For once, it's hot as fuck, and I'm not feeling a swim. I have also been stuck in another country with my father, who's trying to get close to me again after years, and you know what? I'm actually not feeling it right now. The only good thing about that place was Draco. Without him, I would have been drowning in my own depression. The only fun activity was a game I liked to call. Let's see if the mail is here. Guess what? No mail for Miss Rosie Black. I mean, Theo and Iris sent us a letter, but it was mainly to Draco and me. I wanted him to write to me... But he never did. I'm now back in England, and in a few minutes, I will be meeting all of my friends again and the people who hate me because I'm a fucking death eater. At least everyone thinks I am.

"Hey, Rosie?" Draco lays his hand on my shoulder, and I sigh, leaning against the wall behind me. He knows what I am feeling right now. He knows how much I want Mattheo to show up so I can ask him about everything. And he also understands my fear of him not showing up.

"If he dont show up, you know I'm here, right? And Iris missed you so much this summer. She will be there for you. Same thing with Theo. Please dont give up because of a boy." I look away. Because of a boy? I would love to pretend that I'm like this just because of a boy, but the truth is, I'm scared. I'm afraid of what my future has for me, especially at Hogwarts.