Dangerous Addiction M.R (T.N)

Tweleve - (edited)

"Somewhere in the haze, got a sense I'd been betrayed"

"Rosie?" Iris looked over at me from her bed, looking like she had slept for a while but woke up when I stormed into the room crying. She immediately turned the light on and rushed over to me, her hands grabbing my face, forcing me to look at her.

"Rosie? What is going on? Hey, it's okay,y babe." Her blue eyes meet mine as I finally look at him. She smiles a comforting smile and I realise she has no idea what is happening.

"It's okay, just breathe with me. Take a deep breath and count to five with me, okay?" She holds my hand, and I nod slowly.

"Just like that, three, four, five." I exhale and feel my heartbeat finally slow down a little as she holds me tightly, not letting me go. I dont know why I am reacting like this. I dont have any proof that what Pansy told me is true and in the end, I knew about the deal from the beginning. But it's more the fact that he didnt tell me, he kept it from me and he did it knowing damn well I was gonna find out on my own. Fine, I haven't been the best girlfriend lately and in the end, he didnt have a chance... I just assumed we would get more time before this thing happened. It's all been a lot lately, way too much for a 16-year-old girl to handle, and I have no idea how to keep it all in when it feels like I am breaking from the inside.

"Can you breathe normally?" I nod again, still no words coming out of my mouth. I dont know what to say, how to tell her. I dont know what is in my head at the moment. It's all way too much.

"Here, let me help you to your bed." She tries to help me, but my body collapses into hers the moment I finally get onto my feet.

"Oh my, are you okay? I am so sorry Rosie." She sits on her knees before me, and I feel myself falling against the door again. Sighing, I close my eyes. I am rethinking everything from today.

"Should I go get Theo or Draco? Maybe Snape?" I look down, the words won't come out, and I am terrified of seeing Theo right now. Do I even want to see him? What do I say to him? I know you proposed to Pansy behind my back. I like the thing on your finger. Sorry, it's not about us.

"Please no," the two words come out like a whisper, and it feels like I put all my energy into saying them. It's never felt this hard to sit up, to breathe or even talk. Maybe when I lost my mother but even back then, I couldn't feel anything; my body just turned it all off when I lost her. Now I feel everything.

"No?" My hair has fallen over my face, and I feel the wetness from my tears stick together with the strings of hair. Iris helps me get the hair away from my face, getting a better look at my face.

"What is going on, Rosie? I feel like this is not about your mother anymore..." She sounds calm, and no one likes talking about my mother's death in front of me. They are all so scared it will hurt or make me break like a tiny, fragile cup. I wouldn't say I like talking about him, either, so it's fine by me. But at this moment, all I can think of is him on his knees in front of another girl and how much it will affect whatever we had.

"I feel like I should go and get Draco..." She stands up and I grab her hand before she leaves. Begging her to sit down again with my eyes.

"Please, no," the few tears in my eyes made her feel lost. She just stares at me like everything else is gone, and she is paralysed. She has no idea what to do. I try to calm down, feeling my heart rush again, but it is useless. I have to let it happen.

"I won't, but you must talk to me, Rosie. Let me get you to bed. Think you can do that for me?" I nod, and she helps me get up on my feet. This time, I make it to the bed before slowly lying down. Feeling the cotton hug my body.