problems 《k. bokuto》

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The Ushiwaka
You want to learn more about Mika?

Kōtarō
erm- yeah
i've been spending more time with her
but she seemed uncomfortable or overcome with idk a sense of grief

The Ushiwaka
So you're asking me.
Because you don't want to ask her?

Kōtarō bit the side of his mouth, unsure if Ushijima would tell him anything.

The Ushiwaka
Mika lost her high school sweetheart during their first year of college.
It hurt her a lot. She's never really recovered from it. Based on what I can tell, it still seems to haunt her.

Kōtarō
oh

That was all he could think of to respond with.

Kōtarō wasn't sure how to take that. On one hand, it made a few things make more sense, on the other hand, he felt awful not knowing about it.

Kōtarō
don't tell me anymore
if i learn anything more, i want to hear it from mika

The Ushiwaka
Smart choice.

Kōtarō closed the messages, going back to his studies when he realized Mika had disappeared.

'You looked really into what you were doing, I have to go though- but I'll see you later :)
- mika ♡'

Kōtarō had found a letter Mika had written on a napkin, and left it on the table.

He smiled softly, looking at her handwriting. It was Mika.

Her characters were small and separate, but Mika's personality shone through a couple of characters that were connected. He laughed a little, seeing the punctuation, it was her.

While thinking about it, he decided if he wanted to spend more time with her (and go on more "official" dates with her), one thing was clear.

He would have to ask Mika about her past himself

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"Are you doing okay?" Satori asked as he and Mika talked over the phone.

Satori was in Paris, starting his training.

"Yeah," Mika said, then letting out an exasperated sigh. "No, I'm not okay."

"I knew it," Satori said with a chuckle. "Come on, let it all out, Mika Mika."

"Well I don't know if Wakatoshi told you, but uh-"

"She/xey pronouns got it," Satori said, causing Mika to roll xir eyes.

"Yes, but I'm also in the midst of a conflict right now," she said. "You know Kōtarō-kun. Well, I'm starting to think I might have a small- I mean small crush on him."

"Aww that's cute," Satori said. "Let me guess though; you're hesitating because of Eita?"

Mika's hesitation answered his question.

"We made a promise about moving on- but it's just really hard," Mika said. "I'm not sure what to do, Satori. The weight of Eita's death hasn't left and the guilt I have about it makes everything worse."

"What?" Satori asked softly. He wasn't sure he had heard Mika correctly. "Guilt?"

Mika cringed, realizing xey had never told Satori everything. So, Mika just laid it all out then and there.