problems 《k. bokuto》

afterword

hi- it's bee 🕺

so when i started planning this in like late late october (like the 31st) i was like huh wouldn't it be fun if i wrote my feelings at each milestone

so yeah that's just what these are, with dates and what i accomplished at that point :)

as a side note, if you want to listen to the spotify playlist containing all of the songs from the book and some that i thought fit: it's in the header 😮‍💨

31/10/21 - finished writing summary of book

it's the night before nanowrimo and i changed the plot this afternoon and then still have to outline the chapters???

uh yeah- i'm not big brain enough rn

this book means a lot to me at the moment- just actually writing a book with conflict ahhh lksjdfl, but i'm going through a ace scale questioning rn so having a character who is as well makes it a bit easier-

ALSO I LOVE KŌTARŌ BOKUTO <3 and mika xir very cool but i have to go outline chapters- so i gotta zoom

thank you for reading !!

6/11/21 - finished writing chapter outlines

I'm already writing chapter six rn but i just finished chapter outlines and ahh !! it's almost at light savings so i have time to stay up kdnsj but i'm literally so happy i can be getting this book done, it really does mean a lot.

also i'm like halfway done writing it?? does it go too fast?? ig i can always fix it before publishing lol

21/11/22 - finished first draft and book cover

i feel sad but also i have butterflies- i truly finished the book in true romance anime style lmao. it took me so long to get to this point 🧍 i hate having things besides writing to do. but hopefully it goes by faster after this.

y'all i'm literally so in love with kōtarō like- that man will always reign king in my life (watch me get into a relationship after this 💀)

(spoiler- i didn't)

ANYWAYS, that's besides that point- thank you so much for reading !! ikik i already said it but this book holds a special place in my heart. mika is just so precious to me- but i'm only halfway through 50,000 words with 9 days to go so i gotta blast.

thank you again for reading !!

11/28/21 (technically 1/12/21 i forgot to write) - finished 2nd draft

they're so cute ahhh - also, i finished nanowrimo with 52,000 words this month, if you ever want to do it, i would highly recommend it !! just make sure you have an idea and an outline ish it makes taking your ideas into words a lot easier.

finishing the second draft was honestly a blast. knowing more of what i wanted, and changing things along with listening to the songs as i wrote was so much fun <33 once again i hope you enjoyed :))

23/12/21 - finishing final draft

ahhh !!! so many butterflies 😭 i don't remember having it that ahhh

anyways, i stepped up and finished rewriting it so i could publish it on the 25th and y'all with so many people publishing fics- the self restraint i've had to have was insane but i'm powering through it for boyama 😤💅

ugh they really are so cute i'm jealous. but tysm for reading ily for making it this far <33

idk what else to say 🧍 but thank you !!

19/3/22 - completing book 🥲

idk why i didn't write one for when i published the book (i probably wrote one and i just don't know where it went oops)

but it only took me three months of publishing for a book i finished writing in december kdjskn yet i have bittersweet feeling about this ending.

will i have my own koika au's in my head- yes always, but for the main story it's over they're happy :)

but i hope you never listen to "problems" or "i love you so" by the walters bc every time i hear the latter i always get sad thinking about mika 🏃🏃

if you made it this far, i applaud you it's a lot of meaningless writing of me rambling from like a million months ago but i really do appreciate it.

you mean the world to me and i hope you have an amazing live :)

i'll say my final goodbye while "problems" is playing.

but just remember, you can find love in the strangest places. even if you feel like a loser or a disgrace.

ilysm and thank you from the bottom of my heart

- bee-syrup