when you touch me, i hold my breathe so i can focus on your skin against mine
i want to pinpoint the warmth,
i want my energy to clash with yours
and i want to be yours so bad
i hate myself for feeling this way
i just don't have it in me
but i know the only way to kill how i feel would be losing you and i don't know how to do that either
you are so special
and important
i feel like i need you like how my blood needs oxygen
because you are a need,
never a want,
you're a must have and i need you and i can't lose you.
i want to feel you kiss my forehead
and i want you to hold me
and comfort me
i want you to take care of me,
keep me safe
i want you
i want you so badly my chest feels like it will burst
why must i feel this way?
why must my emotions sabotage me like this?
i never wanted to feel this, i swear,
i really do promise,
but i want you
i need you,
i need you in my life
but i want you in a different way.
unrequited i know some would call it,
but i'll never tell you
and i'll never change this situation.
