i miss you i miss you i miss you i love you fuck i love you i want to rip my hair out of my scalp to distract myself from my thoughts so maybe i wouldn't spend every hour thinking of you and daydreaming of you and seeing you in all my dreams until i can wake up after and cry my eyes out because i know i can only have you in my literal dreams i can only have you in my head and i'm so far away and i miss you and i hate you and i love you i just feel so confused and conflicted i need to scream until i'm certain all the air is knocked out of my lungs and then i can take a deep breath and know that breath is free of my hurtful thoughts and my longing
