Danti Oneshots Book I ✨Guess✨

Venting Part 2

"Only if you promise not to tell anyone... or get mad at me."

"I promise." Anti sniffles again and takes a few deep breaths.

"So like... Monday, I had that same nightmare again and had to run into the bathroom and ended up throwing up into the bathtub, which made me feel disgusting, so at fucking 4 in the morning, I had to wash my own vomit out of not only my bathtub but myself, so I was like 'fuck it' and just had a shower, but it turns out I was out of my honey body wash, so I had to use up all of my banana shampoo and conditioner to wash off the vomit, but the smell wouldn't fucking go away, and now I just smelt like banana vomit, so I got out the shower- slipped and smacked my head on the tiles- so now there was blood everywhere, and I had to clean THAT up too so I did that and then cleaned myself up and put on my pajamas again because it was 8 o'clock by that point and I was NOT leaving my bed for the rest of the day so by Tuesday I was not only dehydrated and starving, but I forgot to take my bloody medication but lucky enough withdrawl hadn't hit yet so I was feeling pretty good so I decided to get up and have a shower and WHOOPS I had run out of any form of soap so I just sat under the water and brushed my teeth before putting on pants and having to smother myself with any and all deoderant to try cover up how shit I smelt and went to make some bloody toast and eat some grapes but I see fucking Jackie in the kitchen and I was like 'oh shit here we go' and then he was like 'hey Anti you smell like shit' and I was like 'really? I didn't notice. Thanks for pointing that out, einstein!' so I started eating my grapes and then remembered that I just brushed my teeth, so now my food is going to taste all gross and minty, and that's when bloody Chase and Marvin walk in and of COURSE they start giving me crap about 'oh Anti where were you yesterday?', 'Anti, you don't look so good.' 'Why are you ignoring us?' and then stupid fucking Schneeplestein has to walk in with Jameson. He's like, 'Did you remember to take your medication?' and I lose my shit because now of all times is when the withdrawal kicks in, so I'm trapped in a corner about to have a panic attack in front all the septic egos so I just stuff like 5 grapes in my mouth and shove them all out my way before running up to my room, and they're fucking screaming at me. I can FEEL Jackie on my ass, so I have to lock and barricade my door! And then I spat the grapes into the bin, and I flop back into bed and again don't leave for the rest of the day."

"No wonder I haven't seen you around." Dark chuckles slightly while Anti catches their breath. "Yeah," they sniffle and wipe their eyes on his shirt. "Please continue."

"Well, apparently I fell asleep at some point while watching Netflix because I woke up at like 1 on Wednesday feeling like even more shit, and as much as I wanted to stay in bed, I couldn't stand the smell anymore, so I got up and got the bloody aroma defuser out my wardrobe and filled it up and had it going and since I was up and no one was around, I was like 'might as well' and snuck down to the kitchen again and luckily found some leftover pancakes, so I heated them up and made a coffee, and for once I remembered my meds, so I grabbed a glass of water and glitched it into my room, and by that time my pancakes were ready, so I smothered them with Nutella and covered all three of them with whipped cream then I grabbed a fork and went back to my room and just shoveled those pancakes in my mouth like a BEAST- and they were so good and then I had my meds and my morning was going pretty well so after all that I decided to go to Marvin to ask to hocus pokus me some soap but aparently he and Jackie were busy and didn't apreciate me interupting them so I just fucking ran for it man and was like 'well now what?' anyway later that day I managed to get some from Jameson and had a nice long shower."

"What happened yesterday then?"

"Eh," They shrug and try to wriggle closer, "Not much new, really. I got a good screaming at from the septic egos through the whole day and surprisingly only one ass-kicking, so that was fun."

"It doesn't sound like fun."

"Don't sound so upset about it. I'm used to it." Dark rubs their back soothingly, and Anti moves up so that their eyes are hiding in the crook of Dark's neck. Dark can feel how wet with tears their face is in this position. He speaks with a quiet, gentle voice, "You shouldn't have to be. You deserve to be treated with respect Anti."

"Do I?" The glitch sobs, holding dark tightly. "I've done so many terrible things. I've hurt people. I always make an idiot of myself. I don't even treat myself with respect, so why should anyone else do the same? I know Dr. Iplier said that I should try to have more positive self-talk and spend time doing things that make me happy, but how can I do that when everyone hates me? How can I do things I love when nothing can truly make me happy? Dark-...... I don't have the energy to DO it anymore." Anti sobs and wraps their arms around Dark's shoulders, giving a secured squeeze. Dark quickly returns the hold around their torso and nuzzles into Anti's hair further. It usually isn't so difficult to find the right words, but now that he needs his voice the most, it seems to have formed a lump. Anti tries to rein in their sobbing but fails, only speaking in a babbled whisper. "You don't have to answer any of that. I can tell you're trying your best as it is. Sorry for being difficult."

"Nonsense," Dark whispers back, finding his voice, "You're not being difficult."

"Well then, sorry for wasting your time. I know you're probably busy."

"The last thing this is is a waste of time. I came in here on my own accord, Anti. I'm choosing to be here with you... I WANT to be here with you." Anti sniffles as Dark continues. "I'm... glad... that I have been able to... thank you felt comfortable enough... to confide within me and... that I could... act as a shoulder for you to cry on."

"I'm not crying." Anti repeats with a huff, having relaxed his hold on Dark along with his breathing. "... for you NOT to cry on."

"You're not funny," Anti quietly chuckles, voice barely a whisper, "But thanks or whatever."

"Of course. I will always be here if you need me." Anti stays silent for a long time. And it isn't until a good few minutes later that Dark whispers Anti's name and realizes that the glitch has fallen asleep. Dark smiles, "Sweet dreams, Anti." and soon follows them into a deep sleep.