Blue Moon || Hoonsuk AU

Chapter 3

I couldn't stop these thumping sounds. Five years. Five years passed yet you were unable to move on, Hyunsuk? Wake up, he's someone else's. Like five years ago in a different bar, when Jihoon first tell me about his lover. The same happy face he shows. I thought after that five years, I finally could laugh happily every time Jihoon talk about his lover. Why? Why can't I be a normal friend to Jihoon who just supports his love life?

Hyunsuk rubs his face while facing the mirror. He looks awful. May it be because of lack of sleep or may it be because of the awful feeling he has right now. The moment of last night come to mind.

"Hyunsuk. Just one more drink ok?" Hyunsuk wonder how many times he heard those words already. Normally, except for that one day, Hyunsuk just takes a glass or two martinis enough to make his head feel lighter. It's not like he is a lightweight, drinking a good amount of alcohol helps him feel more at ease maybe because of the kick of the alcohol.

"Aye, Jihoon you're drunk. Get a grip" Hyunsuk knows well Jihoon's drinking habit. He won't stop unless he feels completely drunk.

"Hahahahaha, no Hyunsuk. Not yet. Lemme order one more" Jihoon babbling with a hand gesture showing he wants another glass of whiskey. Hyunsuk could only shake his head at the bartender as a gesture to not accept any more of Jihoon's orders.

"Got your friend drunk huh?" Kim asks him. He probably noticed that Hyunsuk struggling. This view is kinda pleasant to Kim's eyes. First time in 5 years, Hyunsuk drinks with a friend. He moves closer to those two. Looking at Hyunsuk just standing there without doing anything, he grabs Jihoon's shoulder.

"What a firm shoulders," He remarks. He then looks at completely clueless Hyunsuk. "Don't think about helping me?" Hyunsuk wonders if he can hold Jihoon the way Kim holding him. He just standing there looking at both Kim and Jihoon before shaking his head.

Sorry, Kim. I don't have the power to hold him. A body that may be not maybe surely touched by his lover. How can I leave a trace of my finger on his body?

"I am sorry, Kim. As you notice, Jihoon is much bigger than me. I don't think I would do any help" Hyunsuk said making Kim sigh.

"Ok. Let the way"
"Where?"
"Where else? To your house" Hyunsuk gasped. He turns his head quickly to Kim to make sure he heard it right. "Why my house? He stays at the hotel. Just bring him there." Hyunsuk raises his voice making Kim widen his eyes. This is the first time he sees Hyunsuk raise a note in his voice. What with the sudden change?

"We both don't know what's his room number. Plus, your place is around this area. So why not?" Jihoon groaned in his sleep. Kim tighten his hold to make sure Jihoon didn't fall from his grip.

At this moment Hyunsuk feels like he walk in a tiny bridge of a deep canyon with strong winds that desired to push him down. When they finally reach Hyunsuk's place, Kim leaves right away as he put Jihoon on the couch. Hyunsuk doesn't forget to thanks him. Right as the door clicked close, he stand there not knowing what to do. He could just stare at the closed door. Slowly some tears ran down his cheeks. Then he wipes it, the more it flows. Why with this? What's with this feeling. His knees feel weak. He let go of a sobbing sound as he can't suppress it anymore. It hurt. Everything hurt. Has to act fine in front of your unrequited love. Had to hear how perfect his lover is. Watching him happily talk about his love life. It was always what Hyunsuk want. He always wants to see a happy Jihoon, but why, why can't he be happy for Jihoon. It's good that Jihoon found his happiness in his lover and yet why can't he laugh and be happy with Jihoon?

Hyunsuk hit his chest. Maybe as a punishment to himself for being greedy or maybe go let go of a sting pain in his chest but he can't seem to stop hitting it.

Jihoon moved his eyelids. Some smell of cooked food touches his smelling sense. He slowly opens his eyes. He groaned when he feel his head throbbing. He looks around. Not his hotel room. Where is this? Not a single photo can be seen. He grabs his head.

"Oh, you're awake? I make you hangover soup. Come here" Jihoon could say that he's in Hyunsuk's place. He had never been in Hyunsuk's place after the latter moved from his house. Wonder why did he never invited him as he usually does when they are still a child. Jihoon takes a seat opposite Hyunsuk's. He rubbed his temple. His eyebrows meet.

"Drink this first before you drink the soup" Hyunsuk handed a glass of lemon honey drink to Jihoon. 

"Mhm. Thanks" Jihoon takes a sip of the drink. His eyes roamed around the kitchen area. White. Everything white. It looks neat and clean. He knows Hyunsuk is the type that hates mess. He chuckled.

"What's funny?"
"Thanks for bringing me here. The hotel where I am staying is quite far." Hyunsuk stays silent. He focused on his breakfast. "Well, still you have to leave and do your stuff. The earlier it has done, the earlier you open that academy. The earlier too, you meet your...lover" Hyunsuk's voice keeps lower and lower. If he could get rid of a word, he wishes word lover never existed.

"Hahahaha, Hyunsuk for real. You never met Mashiho yet, right?" Hyunsuk raises his head and looks at Jihoon. He shakes his head slowly. He brings his hand to his chest. Clenching it hard. It feels suffocating. Lips quivering, he creates a smile and shakes his head.

"Yeah, I never. I don't even know what he looks like. You love him much that you gatekeep him from me?" Jihoon look at him, full of excitement. His eyes sparkled with happiness. Hyunsuk could notice the love air around him.

"Yeah, I do. Wait, I'll show you his pictures" happily, Jihoon running towards his coat and rummaging his phone, leaving dumbfounded Hyunsuk on the dining table. Hyunsuk let out a sigh. His eyes feel hot. I am stupid? Hahaha, Hyunsuk you're so dumb. He rubs his face.

Hours passed by after breakfast, Jihoon keep scrolling the gallery of him and his lover, Mashiho.

Hyunsuk's POV

No wonder Jihoon fall harder at his lover. He has a cute face and big eyes. He looks soft too. I never imagine having a place in Jihoon's heart but after seeing the pictures of his lover, I know right now and then, I will never have a place in his heart. Jihoon could talk about his love life for hours. The sounds of his laughter. Supposedly, I am happy when I heard that sounds.

"You should see him when he mad. He looks like a furious hamster asking for food" You must love him right, Jihoon? If in this life I couldn't have that sparkly eyes when talking about me, I hope I can have it in my next life. Next, nxt life too, until you're mine.

"I wonder how much you love him"
"Me? I love him so much. I can't wait to see him." Haha stupid of me, wondering such an obvious answer.