HIM ❦ Jisung Park

❦ 12

I can't remember a night where it was hard for me to fall asleep...not like this at least. I have seen things normal people would be scared to see but over time I have gotten used to it I guess.

I didn't fully fall asleep until about 3 or 4 AM. Usually I would be in bed by 11 or 12 but tonight was different. Every time I closed my eyes I would see Heeyoung's dead body. I didn't want to lie to Jisung or NCT, they were the first people to make me realize that not all people are bad, but after my family moved to the states MX became my only family and I'll be damned if I let something happen to my family.

I hear a gentle knock at my door. I look over to the clock that sits next to the bed.

5 : 0 0 am

Only an hour of sleep.

I get up to answer the door. I expected to see Shownu or IM on the other side of the door but to my surprise, Jisung stood there instead. Confusion rushes through my body.

"how can I help you Jisung?" I ask in almost a whisper. He has tear stains on his cheeks, while his eyes are blood red. He doesn't say anything though, he just engulfs me in a hug while the tears start to fall from his eyes. I would normally push him away but I can feel his pain, maybe another reason I couldn't sleep.

I hug him back, trying to comfort him the way my mom used to comfort me before everything changed. "I just" He starts but I hush him because his voice pains my heart. Anyone could tell that he is hurting right now and I don't want to be the monster that my mom and brother claim I am now.

"You can lay in here if you want" I say and he nods. He head is hung low, almost like he wants to hid the fact he is crying. He doesn't say anything he just walks over to the bed and lays down.

He falls asleep fast, all the crying probably made him tired.

"I'm sorry" Is the only thing I say while walking towards the door. I can't risk having Shownu or any of the MX members catching Jisung and I in the same bed. I also can't be in the same bed as Jisung...not after what I did.

I go to the living room and just sit on the couch.

How did my life end up here?

That's the only thing I can thing of. I wonder if my brother never owed MX or Mr. Lee then I wouldn't be in the situation I'm in now. Maybe my family would be a real family right now.

Just as my eyes start to drift to dreamland my phone rings.

Unknown

Without hesitation I answer it. "Ah Chunhei" Heeyoungs voice rings through the phone.

No that's impossible...I saw her die right in front of my eyes.

"Speechless? I know...I sound pretty alive right now don't I?" She says and all guilt I felt leaving my body.

"How the hell are you alive? I saw you die" I say quickly going to recording the conversation. "Well lets just say the guards and I are tired of being with a gang thats losing more money than earning and we staged the whole thing" She says and I roll my eyes. too easy.

"I know your plan chunhei" Heeyoung says and I can hear two men talk in the background. "And what would that be?" I say thinking to myself what Heeyoung could possibly get out of doing this.

"Taking down Mr. Lee and maybe taking down NCT too" She says and I just shake my head, she can't see but its a natural instinct. "Now why would I do that?" I say trying not to be too loud. "Money, Power, to make other gangs scared of MX, the list goes on and on" She says in a duh tone.

"You can try but trust me... you might've been in this business longer than I have been but I am the better actress" She starts and I just laugh. "You belived I was dead right? Well I would just say to watch yours and MX backs cause I'm about to turn yalls world upside down" And with that she hangs up.

What the hell could she mean by that?

A/N I hope you guys like this chapter. I'm trying here guys I promise but life is crazy and hectic right now. I just can't wait for summer.

-adore