Kpop sickfics (requests open)

BTS jungkook/ golden maknae

⚠️self harm⚠️ ⚠️blood⚠️

No ones pov

Jungkook is known as the golden maknae.
Normally he loves having that title but lately... not much.

Jungkook pov

Lately everything had been too much, the dance rehearsals, vocal rehearsals,comebacks, concerts  and keeping up with school is really tiring but being the golden maknae I have to be strong... don't I?

Blood was dripping down my arm, once again I gave into my urges. I know I need help but I'm too afraid to ask for it, what will they think of me if they do.

"Hey jungkook, you alright in there?" I heard taehyung ask "yeah everything is fine" "okay".
I knew he didn't believe me and would probably question me later.

Taehyung pov

I did not believe jungkook when he said he was as fine but I decided not to question him for now and keep an eye on him the whole day.

No ones pov

BTS were currently in the rehearsal studio practicing for their upcoming comebacks and concerts. "okay guys let's start with best of me" namjoon announced, they all agreed and got into position.

Jungkook pov

i did not feel good at all, I have a really bad headache and just don't have any energy.

taehyungs pov

i have not forgot about what happened with jungkook this morning, in fact i have been keeping an eye on him all day and all i have noticed is that he seems really tired and is always making sure his sleeve is covering his arm. i have a suspicion about what he is doing but i don't know how to check if he is doing what i think he is doing, nut for now i wil try and make sure he is okay and if i do find out he is doing it or anything for that matter i am going to tell the rest of the group.

jungkook pov

time skip

i was sitting on my bed scrolling through twitter reading comments

has jungkook gained weight?

jungkook should just leave the group

why is jungkook the golden maknae he should die

do people really think of me like that? i made my way to the bathroom and found my blade i brought it to my arm, i didn't want to do it but it is my only way to relieve what feelings i have.

one cut for being fat

one cut for failing the group

one cut for being a disappointment

one cut for being in the group

" hey jungkook when your done in there come and meet me in my room okay?" i heard taehyung ask "ok" i replied. i quickly cleaned up, put my hoodie sleeve back down and made my way to taehyung.

i sat on the bed next to him "what did you want" I asked nervously, he took a deep sigh before answering " look, I just want to ask if you are okay" " of course I am what made you ask?" was he going to believe me?. " stop lying jungkook I have noticed how tired you are all of the time and how you always hide your arm under your sleeve so please just tell me what is going on so I can help you".

I was completely shocked at what he just said, was I really not hiding it well enough?

" if you are not going to answer me I am going to ask the question I have been wanting to ask you then" this is not good " are you self harming" I was totally shocked. "w-what no o-of course not" why the hell did I stutter now he is definitely not going to believe me " show me your arm" I sat there not moving until taehyung grabbed my arm and rolled up my sleeve.

by this time tears had began spilling out of my eyes I didn't want anyone to find out, well not this soon anyway. taehyung pulled me into a hug " why didn't you tell any of us?" " because I was ashamed ". " why did you do it?" " because everyone expects me to be the best in everything, the best body, the best dancing skill and if I don't have the best of anything they write horrible and mean comments on social media". " oh jungkook don't listen to them they are just jealous, now lets go and tell the other members so we can all help you" " no, please no don't tell them" " jungkook we have to they deserve to know and it is the best way to help you".

taehyung walked me to the living room while he went and got everyone, what is everyone going to say when they find out. 

 no ones pov

 everyone was sitting in the living room, jungkook and taehyung were sat next to esch other while the rest were sat on the couch opposite. " what is this about?" jin asked " well jungkook has something very important to sat to you" taehyung explained. by this time everyone was looking more confused then they were before " s-so I have been hurting myself... on purpose" jungkook looked at taehyung who gave him a comforting smile " what made you do it?" jimin asked " well all the fans expect me as the golden maknae to be good at everything even controlling my weight so they started saying horrible and mean things about me on social media"

by this time jungkook was sobbing, namjoon came over and pulled him into a hug " jungkook, why didnt you tell us?" yoongi asked " because i was embarrassed" " if this ever happens again you have to come to us straight away ok?" jungkook nodded in reply. 

that night they all slept in the living room together.

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sorry for not updating i have been busy

i might make a part two to this chapter