What if i told you i love you?

Twenty two

⚠️This chapter contains mentions of self harm

The next day, at training i was down and everyone noticed but didn't say anything about it because they didn't want to upset me.

Mapi didn't leave my side at training and that's when some people knew something was wrong.

After training we were all in the cafeteria eating. I forced Mapi to sit with some of her friends and after going back and forth she accepted defeat and sat with Leila. I sat by myself in the back corner of the room just staring at my food.

Alexia noticed and came over looking rather worried.

"What happened?"
She asked carefully.

"What?"
I asked confused, but deep down i knew she knew something happened.

"Come on, Emi. You've been so quiet and that isn't like you. What happened?"
She asked again but this time more confidently as she looked for an answer.

"Ask Mapi"
I replied emotionlessly. Alexia nodded and walked away towards Mapi.

Mapi's pov
Last night was hard.

Emily is amazing, she's incredible and i love her so much. She hasn't had an easy life, it's been far from easy, but she doesn't stop fighting and she always puts a smile on the faces of the people around her. She doesn't take the time to ask herself if she's okay, instead she makes sure the people around her are okay.

Emily is the best thing that's happened to me, and the love i have for her won't go anywhere. She's stuck with me forever.

I'm sitting with Leila and Patri when Alexia came over looking rather worried.

"What's up with Emily?"
Alexia asked and i froze. I stared at her, i don't know if Emi said i could tell her or not and i don't want to mess it up with her.

"Mapi!"
Leila said, snapping me out of it.

"Huh? What is it?"
I said as i snapped back into reality.

"What's wrong with Emily?"
Alexia asked again.

"Ask her"
I replied.

"I did and she told me to ask you"
Alexia replied so i stood up from my seat.

"Okay, not here though"
I said as i walked away from the table.

"The locker room?"
Alexia suggested and i nodded.

Me and Alexia went into the locker room and sat down. Ale sat at her locker and i sat at Emily's.

"Are you okay?"
Alexia asked as she saw i was becoming emotional.

"Yeah, i'm okay"
I'm okay, i'm just worried about Emi that's all.

"Okay. Well, what happened?"

"I woke up at around 3am, and i looked over to the other side of the bed and Emily wasn't there, so i got up and i heard sniffling coming from the bathroom so i turned the light on and walked in and when i did she-"
I stopped and just looked at Alexia.

"She what?"

"She tried to end her life"
As i said this Alexia's mouth fell open as tears filled her eyes.

"Yeah, i stopped her though. I told her to put the razor down. At first she didn't but at the second time of asking she did. I then held her and she broke down. She's broken, Ale. She wrote a letter too"

"What did it say? The letter"
Alexia asked as a couple of tears fell from her eyes.

"She told me how much she loves me and that it isn't my fault, she told me to find someone new and to never forget her. She wrote a message for Patri, Leila, Jonatan, Jorge, the team and the fans. She also wrote one for you, it said, 'Tell Alexia that she will always be my big sister and the love i have for her is unlimited. She made me feel safe when the world was crumbling under my feet and i can't thank her enough'.