My Arranged Marriage

chapter 16

                    Hello Fatima, is this how it's going to be, you guys can't even call to check on me, I said into the receiver immediately she picked the call

             Afsh, I would say it's not as it seems and I am very busy but to tell you the truth, I do not wish to talk to you, neither do the girls

           What do you mean you guys don't want to talk to me?? What have I done Soo wrong that is unforgivable? I asked feeling very hurt

           Afsh, we are tired. All the words we've spoken, all the conversations we've held, what have they yielded?  It's just like talking to a brick wall. How many times have we told you to leave that abusive marriage Afsheen? How do you expect is to call you to ask how you are when we know you're not fine, how do you expect us to call you with a laugh to share our happiness when we know you're in misery, how do you expect us to live with talking to you when we know you're deep in pain? We've decided to distance ourselves because the pain of association coupled with the anger of it is too much

          Why would you now stop talking to me because of such reasons? Why would you expect me to leave my husband because of a phase in our marriage Fatima? Even if I were in pain, shouldn't you be the one to put a smile on my face, if I live in Soo much misery, won't you share your happiness with me so I would at least share in it? Why would you distance yourself when it would cause me Soo much pain, aren't you worried about me being in pain? Why do you want to add to my pain?? I asked tears trailing down my cheeks

             What's Soo special in that man that you're finding it hard to leave him, there's no happiness there, can't you see??? Why do you have to go through Soo much for someone like him? I am sorry we caused you pain but I ain't Soo sure I'm going to be able to ease it just now because if anything should happen to you I won't be able to forgive myself

         Stop worrying about that, nothing would happen to me. Just keep on being my friend please, tell the others to be my friend too, I don't want to lose any of you

             It's fine Afsheen, stop crying. You have to save all your strength for Noor, I am sorry, on behalf of others for causing you pain. We only thought of ourselves and not how all of this would affect you.

           It's fine, as long as we can be friends again

           I am afraid I have to hang up now Afsh, my boss is headed my cubicle. Bye

          As the call ended, I sighed in relief. I was Soo scared I was going to lose my friends.

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       Audhubillahi!!!!!! I exclaimed in fear after seeing a man in my bedroom. Having a calmer look however, I realised it was just Kabir

            Do you have to shout Soo loudly?? He asked in annoyance

        I am sorry, I just wasn't expecting you to be back today, I said in a meek voice, hoping not to annoy him further

            Ohh, you don't have to be bothered about my presence, I just came here to pick a few clothes and check my daughter before I leave

        Where are you going to Kabir?? I asked scared of his reply

            Don't stand there and act clueless, you and I know I'm going to see my baby, he replied with an amused smile, only the heavens know what's Soo amusing

        But you already spent two weeks there, why are you still going back again?? I asked, pained

      Excuse you, if I remember clearly, you asked me to leave my house which I did, why are you then making it look like I am unfair to you, he asked staring at me like I've lost it. Oh but he is the one who has lost it though

         I only asked "her" to leave but I am sorry if you misunderstood it to mean you leaving too. As you said, you're entitled to four women and we all know that as you're entitled to four, you're to be equal amongst them all which means you've spent two weeks with her, you'll have to spend my own two weeks with me too, I said with my heart feeling as if it were stabbed severally with each word I utter but what to do, it's either this or nothing at all

            Now you're talking like a wise girl, whoever made you believe you'll have me to yourself before, he said as he bent to kiss me before straightening himself  and leaving, saying something along the lines of going to drive his car into the compound.

  Feeling my legs weaken, I sat on the bed, dazed. I still find it hard to process what just happened. Did I just suggest sharing days with his concubine??? I guess I am stupid after all but I'll just hide under I'm doing it for Noor. After all, a child shouldn't grow up being apart from her father.

          After dinner with Kabir, I sat with him for a while in the sitting talking about random stuffs, very awkward I tell you.  I had to excuse myself to go put Noor to bed before I proceeded to take my bath with only my bed on my mind, I mean I deserve the rest. Just imagine how shocked I was when I saw Kabir in the bedroom when I came out to dress with nothing but my towel on me. I know he has seen everything and all but you have to agree things have gotten strained and awkward between us and the goof bag doesn't even have the decency to turn away.

Well, two can play the game, I said to myself as I strode to the wardrobe to get my pyjamas just as I heard the bathroom door faintly close.

            About to be fully engulfed into the la la land, I felt on my body. It was feathery at first before becoming bolder. My foolish self thought it was la la's hands pulling me into a deep sleep before I realized la la wouldn't grope my boobs and it sure as hell wouldn't have lips that is currently on mine now. My eyes immediately flew open to see Kabir who was staring straight in the eyes with lust filling his. His hands still haven't left my boobs with his locked unto mine as if daring me to stop him. As much as my mind hates and is disgusted by what is happening, my body thinks otherwise as I feel myself pushing closer to him which is just enough sign he needs. I sure am going to regret this tomorrow but I'll live for today first, that was the last thought I had before wrapping my arms around his neck and kissing him as if my life depended on it.  Shameless? I know

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