The Na'vi with Emerald Eyes | Jake Sully x Reader

11. Your strong person

Jake now understood you and your role in the clan and Pandora in general better. You are the person for everything, the future Tsahìk of the Omaticaya clan and the eldest child of the family, na'vi born with a gift given by their deity Eywa.

So much has been expected of you since you can remember. Surely from very young age you should have followed the standards of your parents and always be within their limits. You mentioned to him that you envied your twin for the freedom she had compared to you, and he connected you to his own twin.

Did Tommy feel the same way? The smart and talented child of the family, the better brother. He remembered their school years, when his brother was always the best at everything - earns the highest grades, makes projects, is the representative of the class, makes his own clubs, etc. His parents bragged a lot about what a unique child they had.

Was Tommy actually doing all this for himself or because he was trying to meet the expectations of both his parents and those around him? Are you in the same situation?

He had the feeling for you when you were training or interacting with someone that you wanted to do or say more, but you were holding back. As with Tsu'tey, he could see that you want to said something more in the hunter's face, but you never did. He saw that there is a lot you want to say to your parents, but you never do.

You are always the person who takes care of everyone and everything, trying to meet the requirements of others without thinking about yourself first. Like the breakdown of Neytiri in the Anurai clan, you had taken her in your arms to soothe her, although you were not far from your own breaking point, but you did not shed a tear even as your eyes were wet.

You could not afford to show another emotion, a weakness other than your stoic behavior. You also needed to cry that day, but you couldn't because you had to support your little sister. You keep strong for others so as not to bother them, even though it burdens you.

You've been strong for others for too long that you can't even crack in front of them anymore so you don't bother them. You've been strong for too long to take everyone's problems on your shoulders to help them, because you've been doing it for years and you're used to it and you don't know better than that.

You have been given too many responsibilities and standards from a young age. Your parents have high expectations of you and control a lot of your decisions and choices, not allowing you to have your own personality. From birth you have already written your way in life, whether you want it or not.

You couldn't even choose a mate. Sully remembered the evening when he mentioned that he didn't think you did have the same feelings for Tsu'tey as he did for you, and you kept quiet without saying anything on his comment.

With his time with you, he saw a very different personality from you than when you were with your parents or the other na'vi. You talked to him, you played with him, you laughed at him and his silly jokes, you shared with him. You were opening up to him!

Jake insidly wanted to hit himself. You tried to be yourself with him, you finally had a perosn in your life who didn't want to control you, had no expectations of you, you wouldn't disappoint him, he wouldn't judge you. You cared so much about him and his feelings and emotions, and you stood up several times to clan leaders to protect him. You did so much for Jake and took his weight on yourself.

Jake was blaming himself for what he told you the other day, he had to keep his mouth shut and not bother you with his own thoughts. He crossed a line that he shouldn't have, you weren't ready to ask for help, but you opened up to him and told him something so personal and he fucked things up.