My Moon (Natasha Romanoff X OC)

9.2

"I have no idea where it could be." I sigh. "They haven't used them in ages - I mean they didn't have to because they have always been in control since."

Tony sits down next to me. " Do you know anything about them? Like... Uhm - how many they are or anything like that?"

"Four. I remember it being four words."

"Okay so let's see. Do you know what they were related with?"

"Something with my powers or my name, I don't know."

"Okay so, uhm, you go upstairs with Wanda and wait for me and Bruce with the others in the meeting room. I'm going to call a meeting to search for the book."

Me and Wanda go back to the meeting rooms floor as Friday announces the meeting. We enter the room and sit down waiting for the others to come.

A few minutes go by and soon everyone is in the room. Natalia sits across me and Sam by my side with Wanda on the other.

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The meeting goes quite well except for when Steve opposed to search for hydra bases and bring Bucky with us even tho the soldier insisted in going. I mean, I can understand why.

We planned on starting research today and hopefully we'll have something by the end of the week. Today is wednesday so we don't have much time.

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"Yes, okay. Now keep it steady. Well done."
Wanda smiles at me and looks mesmerisingly at the energy ball I've created with my hands. I hope this is just a fase and my brain remembers how to use my powers, because how can a trained KGB assassin like me not know how to manuver her own powers?

I cross my hands and the little energy ball disappears. "What do you want me to do next?"

"Umm I don't know. What else would you like to try?"

It's been a very long time since I've used my powers. I have no idea what else I can do. She was the one in control of them.

"I don't know. But I think I should go punch some bags." I enter the gym area.

"Okay, I'm going to be in the Lab working with Bruce if you need me. Bye." She waves and leaves.

Since I was little, even before Hydra, I always felt angry at everything and everyone even if I didn't have a reason.

But now with everything that has happened with Hydra, I definitely have reasons.

And being so, I've tried many aways to calm myself down but what would always end up happening is that I'd get even more mad.

But every time I was angry I always felt like hitting and punching things, so being a trained assassin somehow helped with my anger management.

I put on my earbuds - since Wanda taught me about all this new stuff these past days, including the most trending songs - and get everything ready to start my work out.

I put on the only song that somehow brings me safety - tho the place I'd listen to it wasn't very pleasant - and start punching the bag again and again, the song playing on repeat until I'm dragged away by safe memories, bringing me back home to my comfort.

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Friday has been working all night into finding some of the hydra bases locations, but mostly the one where the people that tortured me are. And she was able to find it within twenty-four hours, leaving us the rest of today's day to get ready for our misson tomorrow.

It's already late. Dinner time.
I have trained, showered and actually made improvements with my powers.

So now I'm packing my bag for the misson. Taking only the necessary things for hygiene and some spare clothes, although Tony said he has been workin a new suit for me and that it should be ready by the time we go on misson.

So after I pack everything, I go back to the kitchen where I find Steve sitting alone at the dinner table with a glass of whisky in his hand.

It's pretty late so everyone should be either packing their things or sleeping since tomorrow is a very important day.

"Want some?" He nods his head torwards the bottle. "No, thanks." I reply. "I thought people with the super soldier serum couldn't get drunk."

"And we can't. It's just for the taste." Steve takes a sip.

I open a cabinet and take out a glass pouring some water inside of it. I drink it all so I pour some more and take the glass back with me to my room.

"Wait." Steve calls for me.

"Yeah?" I turn to him, my back now facing the dark hall.

"I'm sorry."He lowers his head to the table.

"... For? "

"You know what for. I've been so mean to you for something it's not your fault. "

"Hmm it's okay. " He nods his head for me to sit next to him and turns to face me.

"I'm just scared."

"Of?"

"That you'll break her heart..."

"I-I don't know what your talking about."

"You know damm well what I'm talking about and I don't want to to break her heart by not being who you were before you two were pulled away. I don't want to happen the same that did with Bucky."

"Steve, people change. I changed, you changed and so did Bucky and Nat. Mostly with all this shit we've been put through. After all this you can't expect someone to stay the same."

I realx in my chair, not really liking where this is going.

"I know but- when I finally got Bucky back, Sam told me something that it really made me think about the way things truly are, you know?" He looks at me and pushes his glass of whisky away.

"What did he say? I'm sorry but I can't imagine Sam saying something like that" I smile.

"He said : 'Whoever he used to be, and the guy he is now, I don't think he's the kind to be saved, he's the kind to be stopped'. And it really made me consider if I'd ever get my bestfriend back."

"To be honest, I think I'm better than Bucky when it comes to know which part of us in in control. And I'm sure, and I promise whole-heartedly, that I'll never, ever do something on porpuse to hurt Nat. I've lost her too many times during too much time to even bear losing her once more. "

A/N: Hey guys, I'm really sorry this chapter took so long, I've been going through a hard time and very busy lately. I hope you guys understand.
Somehow my chapters always end in cliffhangers :)

Thxx for all the love <3