By Corruption I Fall

Chapter Forty-Five

ORYON

I told her I wanted a family of my own.

What the fuck?
I told her the ocean gave me peace and the mountains called out to me.

I told her about Scruff, the dog I had when I was a boy. I told her how much I missed him when he died.

She spoke, I listened. I spoke, she smiled, pushing back her fears.

I don't know what the fuck the movie was about, don't ask me. I know that her emerald eyes were satellites and I couldn't do anything but follow and memorize how her pupils widened in shock, dilating in wonder, expanding and giving in to me.

She did it so flawlessly, she made me feel incompetent. Stupid, stupid, stupid.

I rubbed my hands against my pants, sweaty and clammy, she didn't know that I was a fucking wreck in social and vulnerable situations.

She didn't how much of a fucking mess I actually was.

This woman, her beauty and how she barely grasped the concept of it. How her skin, her fucking skin, I can't find a damned blemish on it.

Except the ones I caused.

I've roamed my hand over the curvature of her waist a total of forty-nine times since I first touched her.

So, thin, so calm, so easy. I am the winter and all she has to do is walk into a room and there is light, a light with flickers of torment but nonetheless, she is the sun.

I hardened for her in flesh, there was no question about that. Who ever didn't was a liar but I am also a liar in other senses. I am a liar that is  falling into love, an oxymoron at best.

A liar, a killer, murderer.

That is falling in love.

I didn't just harden for her with my cock. It was everything about her. Her elegant thoughts, her impulsivity, her rage for justice and thirst for fairness. How she talked about her sister, her voice cracking, turning away from me and sub-conciously, crawling into a ball.

I didn't let her, I stretched her out and kissed away her tears.

"I will get her back to you" I said, my jaw flexing at imagining how severely I was going to torture the hospital staff.

"I don't deserve this happiness, not while she's out there being submitted to all types of horrors"

My hands bunched into fists so hard that my knuckles turned white. She didn't deserve this doubt , she was more than deserving of happiness.
"Are you happy? Really? With me?" I asked, melancholic. Spiders of decisions and despair crawling over me.
She reared back, "Oryon, you are my happiness"
I didn't say anything back to that. I could not be someone's reason why they smile.
Why they cry, yes.
But no.
Ventori said...
Fuck.
It's stapled into my goddamn head. His licks of evoking abuse, his teasing of inhumanity.
I guess I feared him so much that I became him.
"I'm sorry...was that wrong to say?" She jutted out her bottom lip and rested her head against my chest, looking at the screen of a car crash.
I didn't know what to do with my mouth or with my hands. They were both locked closed like a cretin.
We didn't speak to each other for the remainder of the movie.
Occasional caresses that felt distant until the movie ended. Dulor and Pietro got up with a yawn and walked over to us.
"Oh, Oryon!" Dulor whispered with a small gasp.
I looked down at my lap and tried to move but Xiomara was sound asleep. I put my arms underneath her and picked her up.
Her lips were rosy, slightly parted, her eyelashes curled and dark.
She was vulnerable, comfortable and in my control.
She fell asleep in my arms after I half -croaked like an imbecile when she told I was the one that made her happy.
In my grasp...
In my arms.
I felt like a king holding a triumphant prize. I felt like there was no sweeter act, no purer thing that someone trusting in you so much that they let go of hesitation and went to sleep on you.
"Did you guys even watch the movie?" Pietro asked loudly, loud enough to stir Xiomara in her sleep.
I locked eyes with him in a deathly glare, "Lower your voice. You will wake her up"
Dulor nodded in agreement with me and continued to drag him out of the movie room, "Goodnight, Oryon. Thank you for tonight, it was lovely"
"You're welcome" I said.
"Also, there's a bag full of clothes and stuff Xiomara might need while she's here with you. I told a woman of your staff to take up to your room. I hope that's okay?"
Xiomara made a sound in her sleep, like a soft moan, "Shh, sleep. You need sleep"
I nodded at Dulor and she took it, smiling at us widely.
I looked down at the girl that was so intent on stealing my heart.
Wow...
"She's so beautiful" I said out loud without thinking.
"She is, Oryon" Pietro whispered, looking at Xiomara with affection.
I let it slide. He wasn't a threat and Dulor was right beside him but fuck it if my jaw didn't flex at how he looked her like he was starting to care for her.