No place in heaven

Chapter 4

"Hey, dear.", I heard Mikhails voice in the next room.

"What's up with my favourite pole dancer....what happened?", his voice got softer.

"Leave me alone."

"No, what's wrong?", I felt him sitting down next to me.

"I got fired.", I sobbed.

"Oh, why?"

"I had another blackout.", I buried my head in my arms.

"I'm truly sorry. It's their loss, you were great."

"Not helping."

"No way back?"

"No, he said he will pay me if....I....if he gets my body."

"As much as I want to kiss you or make out with you, I respect that you don't want it, and that you hate physical contact. If I were you, I wouldn't do it. There are other ways for sure.", he said laying one of his tentacles around my shoulder.

"Never thought I would hear that out of your huge mouth.", I sadly smiled at him.

"I'm full of surprises. Didn't know you had wings.", he looked at my back.

"Well, I do.", I laughed.

"Can you fly?"

"Of course, I can, what do you think they are for?"

"Don't know. Can you lift me with....?"

"I couldn't lift your heavy ass if they had twice the size.", I laughed.

"Good to see you're better, I hate sad people, they don't pay well.", he stood up.

"I would've been surprised if you didn't turn this into something dirty.", I got up.

"Well then, if you need me, you know how to summon me.", he lifted his hat a bit and vanished.

I changed my clothes to something more comfortable, I decided to keep my wings out, so I took an armless shirt to put them through the arm holes. I usually hide them, no one should find out my secret, but now it felt right, they gave me the feeling of protection. I looked at myself in the mirror, except for my red eyes from crying I was quite happy with my look.

"Malook?!", I heard a voice and saw Azi in the mirror standing behind me.

"I....it's not what you think.", I turned around.

"You are the Malook I knew, right?", he said with teary eyes.

"Aziraphale...."

"You are!", he smiled and took my hands.

"I found you again.", he shed a tear.

"You're not mad?"

"No, why should I?"

"I fell, I messed it up, I don't even know what exactly happened, one day I just fell into that sulphur pit."

"As long as I found you again, I'm not mad.", he wiped away my tears.

"I'm happy that I found you again.", I smiled back.

"How could I not recognize your beautiful face?"

"Well, I look completely different."

"Yeah, I still see your curly hair and the white robe, but one thing stayed, the different eye colours."

"Yeah, some things never change.", I shyly laughed.

"The left one was the golden one if I remember right?"

"Yeah, now it's black."

"The other was blue?"

"Yeah, you have a good memory.", I blushed.

"I could never forget your face.", he smiled.

I placed my hands on his chest, looking into his eyes, I wrapped my wings around myself to avoid close contact as I placed my head on his shoulder.

"Can I hug you? Without opening the wings of course."

I just nodded, I felt his arms squeezing the feathers, it was nice, warm and soft, I didn't hug someone in ages, sometimes I kind of missed it.

From now on I allowed him to hug me while I'm covered with my wings, it didn't happen often but once or twice a week, when we were in his house on earth, but also sometimes in my house in hell. I still haven't found another job, my only talent was dancing, even with mind control I couldn't convince them. It was frustrating, nobody wanted me, I felt like a disaster, but luckily Mikhail and Azi were good friends and helped me, Mikhail gave me advice for free while Azi gave me food so I didn't had to spend all my money. Also, Mikhail kind of liked Azi, as he had different kinds of friends, he wasn't really bothered that he's an angel, and I was one. Mikhail walked in when he was there, without coat and glasses, so he found out I knew the mysterious spying angel and promised to keep his huge mouth shut.

This time we were in my house watching TV and talking and drinking.

"Hey, Mal?"

"Sir?"

"What if you give us a bit of your show?"

"Of my show?"

"Yeah, for your close friends."

"I don't have a pole.", I tried to avoid it.

"Now you do.", Mikhail snapped his fingers.

"Are angels even allowed to see this stuff?!", I panicked.

"Of course.", Azi grinned.

"I don't feel good, it reminds me of my job, and then in front of my friends."

"You ruin all the fun.", Mikhail snapped the pole away.

"Sorry. Maybe another time."

"Yeah, of course, don't give me wrong hopes. Well, gentlemen, I have to go now, was a pleasure.", he stood up and took his hat.

"See ya."

"Bye."

When he was gone, I sat back on the sofa, next to Azi, I opened my wings, wrapping them around me, slowly moving closer.

"Want to cuddle?", I just nodded, and he laid his arm around me, making sure he only touches the feathers.

I liked it and got kind of used to it by now, we spend a few evenings per week all together, it was always fun and relaxed, I liked it, until one day.....