Change My Mind (Harry Styles Fan Fiction)

Chapter 19: I Just Don't Know.

RECAP: "I promised myself I'd never date you." I whipsered.

Harry pushed his lips to mine, slowley. "Then thats a promise that your gonna have to break" He said quietly.

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I stared at him. He was asking me to date him. What should I do.

"I-I" I stuttered. I didn't know what to say. "I need to go" I whispered turning away from him.

Before I could leave the room Harry pulled at my arm. "No you don't" He said just above a whisper. I looked into his eyes. He really wanted me to stay.

"I just don't think I can Harry" I said. My voice cracked. I can't imagine dating him. Going those years hating him, and promising myself that I would never date a guy like him. But here I am, falling for that boy.

The guy that he is now, is the one I'm falling for. 

Harry picked me up, causing me to wrap my legs around his waist. He brought his nose to mine, and his lips skimmed over mine. Crashing his lips into mine, he began walking. 

After the kiss broke, I was set down onto Harry's bed. Before I could move, his body straddled over mine. His hands gripped my waist and pulled my body further onto the bed. He went push up position above me and set his lips on mine. 

My hands travled to the back of his neck pulling him closer to me.

I rested my hands on his chest and pushed him slightly off of me.

"S-stop." I whispered. Harry ignored me and placed his lips on my neck. His lips left a small trail of kisses up my neck to below my jawline.

He sucked in a little, causing me to flinch. My hands fisted the extra material hanging from his plaid, button up shirt. I'd never actually been in a situation with a guy like this. 

His teeth gentally grabbed at the bare skin of my neck. I let a small groan escape my parted lips. I felt Harry smile a little against my skin, satisfied with my reaction to him. His tounge skimmed over my skin, and pulled away from me.

My hand immediatly trailed up to my neck and scanned over the now taken area.

"Looks like you don't have a choice" He whispered.

"Get off of me" I said with a harsh tone.

He gave me a confused look. "No" He flashed a cheeky smile towards me. He obviously didn't get that I was pissed off.

"Harry! Get the hell off me!" I said.

"Are you doing this on purpose!?" He said. "Are you really just going to let me kiss you, and hold you, and now your just going to leave?"

I could see anger in his eyes.

"Get off!" I yelled. He finally moved, but didn't let me leave. His hand grasped my wrist harshly, and wasn't letting go anytime soon.

"What the fuck are you doing?!" Harry yelled.

"What the fuck does it look like!? I'm going back to MY house!" I said. Tears were by now streaming down my cheek.

"Why are you even mad at me? I've done nothing but care about you since the day I met you, and all you give me back is shit!" He yelled.

"Then why the hell do you even stay with me? I hope you know this isn't something that you need to do!" I yelled.

He pinned me to the wall, with my hands to the sides they belonged.

"What the hell is your problem, Amber?! You come and pretend that you actually like me for a week, then I make a small move and all you do is get pissed off with me! What do you expect from me?" He yelled.

My legs broke down, his hands released from my wrists, leaving temporary white marks where he was holding, from the pressure.

I slid down the wall I was against and began crying. I felt Harry sit next to me.

"I'm sorry, Amber." Harry whispered. I ignored him, and continued to cry harder. 

Harrys arm wrapped around me, and pulled me into his lap. I sat sideways across his lap, as his arms stayed tightly wrapped around me. 

I rested my head against his chest and shut my eyes. My eyes shot open when Harry began singing. The lyrics slipped out of his mouth, beautifully.

Settle down with me,

cover me up

cuddle me in,

lay down with me, and hold me in your arms.

When your hearts against my chest

lips pressed to my neck

I'm falling for your eyes

but they don't know me yet

and with this feeling I'll forget

I'm...

He paused for a moment. I looked up at him.

I'm in love now.

Tears fell down my cheek, again.

I thought about the first time I met him. When he bumped into me at Starbucks. How much I hated him, but now, how much I actually love him.

I wrapped my arms around his back and burried my head into his chest.  His arms stayed wrapped around me.

"Amber" Harry said.

"Hm" I hummed quietly.

"I'm so sorry" He started. "I shouldn't have yelled at you like that. I guess I just got mad because you don't feel the same way about me" He said quietly.

I squeezed my eyes shut for a second and slowley opened them. "But I do, Harry" I said. "I love you, I just don't know how to deal with it." 

"Why is it so difficult?" He aksed me.

 "I just never saw myself with you. Your so famous and evevryone wants you. And I'm just an average girl working at Starbucks." I said.

"Whats wrong with that?" He said.

"I just never thought this could happen. I never wanted to like you, not even as a friend" I paused. "But you changed that."

"Well I'm glad I did." He said. I laughed a little. He got serious again. "You don't understand how much I like you, Amber" He whispered.

I snugged into him a little more. "Why me, though?" 

"Because. Your beautiful, funny, smart, fun" He trailed off. I placed my lips on his gentally.

"I love you" I whispered.

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Woahhh.. Got a little spicy up there. I'm going to find an acress for Amber, and Connor and maybe Zach.. Any ideas leave comments! Vote, comment, and Fan! <3