Forever my quarterback/Finn Hudson

The sister

"Hello, well um, I wrote a song a few nights ago when I couldn't sleep. See, I think I've gotten about 2 hours of sleep in a whole week," I laughed and ran my fingers through my hair. I looked over at everyone, all of glee club was crying. Quinn was holding Beth close to her, that was her last thing of Noah and she was afraid to let go.

It's been seven whole days, seven whole days
Since you paralyzed me, I started singing, as I sang I thought of everything I ever did with Noah. My hands were shaking and there were tears in my eyes but they couldn't come out. I was clutching on my dress trying to get some kinda control.

FLASHBACK:

When I got to the hospital it all was like it was going in high speed, I knew he was going to die. We all did. He was brain dead, to the point where their telling us to make our final plans.

Seven whole days, seven whole days
Since you lost your fight

I walked into his room, Noah was hooked up to a million wires and random things. Mom was sitting on a chair next to him, holding his hand. My breathing stopped as I saw my brother pale and dead. He didn't even look like Noah, they had tried to pump his stomach but it didn't work.

"Come here, sweetie," Mom held her hand out for me to come sit by here, I sat down on the edge of Noah's bed and stroked his cheek, "Their taking him off life-support in a couple hours. So, get Jake here and Quinn possibly Beth. Just anyone you think would want to say goodbye." She rubbed her hand up and down my arm.

And I can't get the last words that you said
Can't get those words out of my head
Seven whole days, seven whole days and four words

At that moment Jake came running in, he had tears running down his face. I walked over to him, pulling him into a hug. He pulled out of my grasp and over to Noah. I walked out into the hall and called Quinn. She said she'd be over as soon as she can, I sat down in the hallway, running my fingers through my hair.

And I can't get away from the burning pain
I lay awake
And the fallen hero haunts my thoughts
How could you leave me this way?

The sound when it's over is a sound I'll remember for the rest of my life. I remember hearing the beeping, then the million of doctors and nurses running in. Jake and mom were pushed out of the room, I stood up and tried to run in but they wouldn't let me.

END FLASHBACK

It's been seven whole days, seven whole days
Since I heard the phone ring, I could still remember when Quinn came running into the hospital holding Beth and me having to tell her she was too late. I've never seen Quinn cry so hard. I heard Beth crying, when I looked out into the crowd I saw Quinn rocking a sobbing Beth.

Seven whole days, seven whole days
Since I heard your voice, Before I left for school that day, Noah wasn't really sick. That's just what he was telling everyone so they wouldn't know. When I walked out he grabbed my hand and said

"I love you," My response was "I love you more," And his last words he ever spoke to me were "if you say so".
And I can't get the last words that you said
Can't get those words out of my head
It's been seven whole days, seven whole days of pure hurt, I felt myself breaking but I held it together, I couldn't let everyone see what my brain looks like because if they do I'll be thrown into a hospital. I played with the fabric of my dress, pinching it like I want to pinch my neck.

I can't believe it's true
I keep looking for you
I check my phone and wait to hear from you
In a crowded room
The joker is so cruel, I covered my mouth as sobs that have been fighting for freedom finally won the war. I could feel the grief filling my body in a way I never want to feel again. I knew that Noah would have been so proud of all of us for fighting through and never giving up on him or ourselves. But I think I gave up on me the minute I held my mother as she sobbed into my shoulder because her first born child took his life.

I spun around before bolting out of the room, I ran down the halls to the choir room. No one was in there and I just fell to the ground sobbing so loudly there is no way they didn't hear me. I held onto the little necklace he gave me a few weeks ago, god I wish I could go back to those times. I miss my brother.

"Okay Charlotte, you got this," I whispered to myself before standing up and waking over to the little mirror in the corner. I fixed my hair and my makeup, taking a drink of my 'water' bottle. I walked out of the choir room and back into the auditorium. I saw Quinn talking to Beth who was crying, poor baby misses her daddy. I miss her daddy too. I sat back down in my spot next to Santana, she took my hand and held it. I couldn't focus on anything that was going on because my heart hurt to much to give a shit. My brother was dead and all of these people expect me to be okay for a couple hours and sing and listen to people gush about all the great things he did.

But who is going to give a crap about what we say in a week, he'll be forgotten like you forget to wash your car. He's going to be thrown into a dark whole that no one dares to look in. I will make sure Noah isn't forgotten but there's only so much I can do. I'm so sorry, Nunu. I love you.