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covid

dear internet. i would like to publicly say that covid is discriminatory against red gays with no gender. 

ive had covid the past week and its been awful. well not that bad bc i got to hang out with my cousin (also gay so be had fun saying gay shit without our family knowing, we also got to read and write together so thats fun) and i got to miss a bunch of school (dreading going back). 

my whole body was all achy and my nose was (and still is) running like a tap, ive got an aweful cough, ive been sneezing like theres no tmr and i felling nasuoes all the time and ive got  headache (mix that with the fact ive got my period and youve got the best week ive ever had! *detect the sarcasm?*) ive also missed 4 of my assessments/assignments- 

oh and on top of that before this i had skipped almost everyone of my classes for the past four weeks and my mum and uncle are pissed at me for it.

im also living at my uncles bc 3 weeks ago australia got fucking FLOODED even worse then the 2011 floods. and my house got flooded. but its ok bc a week before we got kicked out and was given until april to get our arses out. some people came and ripped up our carpet and we have emptyed our house. mostly. so we stayed at our uncles house for the weekend and now we are at my other uncles house. my nan is at the first uncles house. 

update a year after the incedent with pimples. (explained in detail in the 8th chapter) 

he still bothers us a bit but not much and towards the end of last year cat had a falling out wiht the school and moved to a different one, cat isnt friends with pimples any more, im still freinds with cat but no one else from her old school is. the other freinds from the sleepover (not blondie, im gonna call her dell (thats my computer brand and couldnt think of anything else- dell goes by he/her)) dell had a huge fight with cat and they arent friends any more bc they told me the other was being toxic and mean to them but really there just too toxic for each other- anyway that happened and we have new classes this year and dell and i have 2 classes each with pimples and in one of there classes together they started talking and pimples started accusing cat of lying about what he did to them. and bc dell and cat just had a fight and dell hates cat dell belived pimples and just brushed everything that happened aside. like yes were all leaving each other alone and not thinking about, yknow 'forgive and foget' just with out forgiving or forgeting- anyway theyre friends and ive told dell how uncomfortable pimples makes me and ive spoken to pimples about it but dell ignore me and pimples kept going so ive been hanging out with dell less bc shes always hanging out with pimples and dell got really upset at me the other day bc one of our friends went through something and wasnt comfortable telling him but was with me and he got all mad and defensive at me 'i feel like everyone in our freind group would rather talk to anyone but me! its like they dont like me any more. our friend group hates me!; he says that to me all the time. but wouldnt your trust be fractured slightly if your friend became friends with someone who assaulted you and was always with him and with us simaltaniously? i feel selfish. anyway after that someoen inturapted him trying to talk to me and he went of in a huff and i tried to talk to him but i couldnt and then he disapeared and i wanted to know if he was ok. so i asked pimples where he went and i called him over and started to ask and then he blatantly walked away and he did that three more times before i gave up and went outside to find him and then he walked right past me and didnt even glance at me when i tried to talk to him. i know thi smakes me seem too sensitive but i went into the nearest bathroom stall i could find and broke down. i sat and cried for 10 minutes and then as i went to leave i got up, took of my shoes and kicked. the walls, the bin in there, the toilet, the door. anything and i kicked and threw my shoes all over the room and it was way loud i got really scared i would get a detention but i didnt and when i walked back in it was time to pack up and my friends dell and pimples and also three of my other friends were sitting like 2 3 metres away from each other and so i sat in between them bc i didnt wanna sit with anyone after and then pimples turned around and said to me 'im not aloud to talk to you' right to my face and snickered. that- imma move on bc i dont have anything to say. after that i went home and dell texted me (i didnt know though. my phone was in my bag on silent) and then i checked my phone like an hour after he sent it and it was something like "im not mad at you" "my name" "oh. ok then" "you dont have to get sensitive about it but knowing you you probably got really sensitive about it" i fucking cut loose. i dont rememeber what i texted back but i cut fucking loose i told him that i dont always have to answer him and my life doesnt rovole around him and other stuff but im pretty proud of my self for finally doing that. that is something i neeeded to do ages ago. after that he tried to diffuse it bc he knew if we got in afight it would be ugly for both of us (im guessing) and thats it.

recently i jokingly said to him well fuck you too bc he sent me a random video saying fuck you if somthting i dont remeber then he screenshoted it and posted it on tiktok and it had my name out for eveyone to see and ive said too many fucking times i dont want to be on tiktok and stuff. any way i found out about this from on of mu other friends and i sent the screenshot my frind took of the vid to dell and bc im at home with covid ive been ignoring everything shes texted me since. she tried sending me bithcy texts that i didnt answer and then the next day she deleted them (insta dms). probably didnt want evidence of what he said. im tryong not to talk to him

any way thanks for coming to my ted talk if you stayed this long you deserve blue cookies. here: 💙🍪

also i cut my hair again! i love it and this time it is andrognous

thanks and love you all. remember to sleep (when you need to) eat if you havent, and drink loads of water!!