tryst [third] // h.s

3.11

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Chapter eleven

Zara Malik

"I really hope that box gets to the UK." I say while catching my boyfriend's hand as we leave the post office in Japan.

"Can you imagine if it gets lost in the mail? It has both of our names." Harry says but I shake my head out of the thought. It would be so embarrassing for the both of us but we laugh it off.

"I told Cassie a package was coming to her house and she asked what and I blanked." I confess but Harry releases my hand to throw his arm over my shoulder and kiss my temple so I slide mine around his waist. "It's better than my little sisters getting it at my flat."

"We definitely don't want that." He says in a rather pensive tone, which causes me to give him a look but he just distracts himself with our surroundings. "Where to today, angel?"

"Do you wanna go shopping? We haven't done any of that." I propose and he smiles, nodding as we look for the nearest subway station.

We've been in Tokyo for a week and we did all of the touristic things already, which means we know the city like we do our hometowns. It's been a beautiful experience and I can say this has been a trip to remember.

We leave in a few days because I have to start doing promo for my album that comes out in a few months. Everything is pretty much settled. The photoshoots are done, the records and pieces of vinyl are ready and we are tweaking the final details on the tour.

I have to do press, radio shows and shoot music videos but the main things of the tour are settled. I have exclusive outfits with my favorite designers and choreographies for me and my amazing dancers. Everything is perfect.

I just have to tell Harry.

Small details, I know. However, it's not like he entirely doesn't know about this or doesn't expect me to tour. He knows I'm releasing an album and it's a given fact that I will tour it.

I want to tell him, I do but doing so means that it's real and that we are going to be away for so many months.

Good thing is that he's free from any commitments this year, at least that I know of, but I don't want to make him feel like he has to come on the road with me. If he wants, great. But I don't want to make it as if he has to come all around the world in the one year that he's supposed to relax.

Our relationship will survive, I am not worried about that. I just worry that he feels like I left him alone, even when there's room and availability for him to come along with me.

This is the year Harry has to focus on himself, and I wouldn't forgive myself if he wasted it on following me around the world.

I notice we are both silent, just wandering around the streets of Tokyo. We usually realize one of us is daydreaming or merely thinking but this time none of us break it.

Harry grins at me with his lips tightened as he realizes I'm staring but I mirror his reaction, just leaning closer to him, throwing my other hand over his tummy to connect it so I'm giving him a side hug as we walk.

I wonder what he's thinking about. He returns my hug but he's silent. We woke up and had breakfast but we've been talking so much that the silence is very noticeable.

This week has been great for us as a couple. I don't think we've been alone as we did these past few days but I love it this way. We were able to connect in different ways that we hadn't before.