Her last Breath

Thursday.

I feel like I haven't slept in days. Maybe I really haven't. I lost track of time.
I'm just so tired of that miserable school full of horrible people. The only good people there are Luke and Sam. I searched for my phone. I sent her 37 texts and 26 calls. She didn't answer one. She didn't pick up one damn call so I can explain myself.
Doesn't matter how much I didn't want to go to school, that's the only place where I can see her.
I started to lazy walk to school til Luke caught up to me.

"Hey dude how are you? " he asked me patting me on the back.

"How do you think I am?" I answered never taking my eyes from the ground.

"I know bro. I'm sorry. She'll forgive you though." He said looking at me. I kept my eyes on the ground.

"No she won't." I said holding back the tears.

"How do you know that?" I stopped and looked straight in his eyes.

"Because she thinks I fucked her because she was a bet! And now I've lost her!" I yelled and walked away fast. He didn't even try to catch me. He just let me go.

When I got to my school I just took a deep breath and walked in. I saw Sam by her locker and ran to her. She was devastated and had something in her hands. Oh shit. I'm going to kill Calum. It's the picture he took of me and Sam. I saw her analyse my reaction. She was destroyed. I can't see her like this. I saw her look around. Thousands of copies surrounding us. Trapping us. Everybody was staring at us.

"I didn't want this... I'm sorry but it's not my fault." I mumbled looking straight in her eyes

"It never is..." she mumbled back and started to walk away

I went after her. Everybody was laughing at us. At her. I saw her stop and fall to the ground. I ran to her and held head in my legs.

"Help! Someone call 911 please." I yelled but nobody moved an inch. I searched for my phone. I dialed 911.

"911 what's your emergency?"

"My girlfriend passed out on school and she's not waking up."

"Calm down sir. Where are you?"

"St. Peters high-school. Please hurry." I hung up

I hugged her tight and held her head with my shoulder.

"Hold on baby please. Help is coming. I love you. Please don't leave me." I mumbled at her.I repeated that over and over until the doctors came.

"Can I come please?" I asked as they took her into the ambulance.

"Sure." The doctor said and I sat by her side. I held her hand in mine. I never let go. The doctor on the other dude just looked at our hands intertwined

"You two really love each other don't you?" He asked and I just nodded. I kissed her hand and let her touch consume my all. We are like one.

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I've been with her. By been bed for 2 hours now.
I saw her trying to open her eyes so I let go of her hand.

"Michael?..." God I missed her voice

"Yeah, it's ok. You passed out. We're in the hospital."I ran my fingers through her hair.

"Why are you here?"

"They needed somebody to come with you so I came." I lied.

She nodded and looked down at her hands.

"Was it a lie?" She mumbled so low I could barely listen

"What?" I asked confused

"You said you loved me was it a lie?" She looked straight in her eyes and they were no longer green but grey.

"Sam..."

"Answer please. I need to know the truth. " I saw tears go down her face. I'm bad from her. I have to let her go. No matter how much it hurts.

"It was all a lie. But I still care about you." I saw the tear hit the sheet and I lost her in that moment I lost her

"Leave." She clenched her fists and opened her eyes

"But Sam."

"Just leave!" She yelled and I started to walk away. Emotionless. As soon as I passed the door I dropped to the floor crying. I held my knees in my chest and cried. I cried so hard. I heard her cry in the room too. I saw nurses coming in to calm her down but even then I still heard her sob and cry for me. It hurts like he'll letting her go but it's best this way. If we're meant to be she'll come back to me. If not then. I guess it's over.

I saw Luke coming my way and I stopped crying.

"Let's go home." I said hugging him briefly.

We got in his car but didn't talk. At all. He stopped in front of my house.

"Do you want me to come?" He asked

"Nah I'm good. See ya tomorrow." He nodded and drove away.

I was home alone. I went into my room and locked it. I went into my closet and searched for a box. That cardboard box had Sam written on it. I took it to my bed and opened it. The object on top was a little pink velvet box. It was hers. I opened it and held out the pictures in it. There were over 200 pictures but the last one. It was an old one. A picture my mom took. That day, She was like a regular mom, elegant, nice, taking her little boy to the park. This was taken when I met Sam. I still remember her two side ponytails. Little did I know... I placed the pictures back in the box and got out a drawing. We made that when we were 5. It was me and her holding hands. The message above read, When you look at the stars you'll see me. And She signed it. God my heart hurts. I haven't seen this in a long time. I took out another piece of our childhood. A file attached to a picture. The picture was me and her. She was teaching me piano. And the file. A song we wrote. Not about angels. Another memory. A flashdrive. I plugged it to my laptop and played the videos within it. The first one was the first Christmas our families spent together. My mom kept on drinking Scotch while I gave my gift to Sam. Wow. We were so little. I gave her a puppy. She held it tight and then hugged me. The second video was our first day in primary school. We held hands and walked inside. All these videos where her mom that room them. The third one. Our first kiss. Her mom filmed it and I didn't even know. I let the tears fall. This was our love story. The fourth video. It was her, this was last year. I let the video play.

"Hello Michael. I wrote you a song. I hope you like it." She sat at the piano and started to play.

"I know this hurts
I know there's pain
But people change
Lord knows I've been no saint.

In my own way
Regret choices I've made
How do I say I'm sorry
How didn't I say I'm sorry

I was scared
I was unprepared

Ohhhhh for the things you said
If I could undo that I hurt you
I would do anything
For us to make it through ohhhh

Draw me a smile
And save me tonight
I am a blank page
Waiting for you to bring me to life.

Paint me your heart
Let me be your heart
I am a blank page
Waitin for a life to start

Let our hearts start
And beat as one together
Let our hearts start
And be as one forever."

She stopped to play and looked at the camera

"Sorry I didn't tell you sooner but I love you."

The video ended.
I didn't even realise I was crying.
I got out my phone and called her. It went to voicemail.

"Hello you tried to reach Sam please leave message after the beep."

"Hey Sam. I'm sorry I really do love you. I just thought you were better without me. I love you please call me back."

I love you.
I do.

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The next chapter will be a big one so it'll take a while. If you want to know the song is Blank Page by Christina Aguilera.
I love you all guys. Kisses xoxo.