Peace - jaylor story (peace book 1)

I take this force of a man to be my lover

June 10th (ellie is 39weeks)

-Taylors pov-

It's the morning of the wedding and I have butterflies in my stomach. This is going to be the start of a new chapter in my life, and I get emotional with even thinking about it. Ellie and I are on the floor playing as it is around 7am and she has decided that nighttime is over now. Every time I look at her it seems like she is getting a little bit bigger, and I can't stop looking at her or talking about her or to her. Next to joe she is the best thing to ever happen to me. I didn't know I could love anyone as much as I love joe, but she proves to me every day that I absolutely can.

I'm sitting near her as she is using the rolling walker like thing that's supposed to be good for babies to hold onto while they explore the room standing up instead of crawling. She can't walk on her own yet, we don't expect her to either, but she loves to pull herself up and stand holding anything she can use to pull up standing. Slowly she has been starting to take steps with the walker and it's so much fun to watch her discover what her legs can do to help her move in a different way than on all four or being carried.

"Are we going to go and eat some breakfast little miss munchkin? I'm here alone with her as joe is staying at the apartment on music row as apparently we were ordered that we couldn't see each other before the wedding so last night he had to go somewhere else. Selena is here with me, but she is sleeping still. Just because I'm awake at the crack of dawn with Ellie doesn't mean she has to lose out on sleep too.

As this is a smaller wedding, we decided that we would have one maid of honor and one best man without any bridesmaids or groomsmen. But we will have both of Blakes girls as flower girls and joe's nephew Ivan as the ringbearer. It was hard to choose who we wanted at our sides as there are so many people that are important to us here, but we had to make a choice. I chose Abigal as she has been my best friend since freshman year and it wouldn't be the same without her by my side, and joe chose Patrick. I do feel bad that I only chose one person as my part of the bridal party, but this isn't a big wedding and everyone has assured me that they're fine with my choice. They've all assured me that they understand and actually expected me to choose Abigal so that made it better.

I sit Ellie down in her highchair with a bib as I get her breakfast ready. Today I have a hard-boiled egg for her chopped up and a piece of toast with butter and some natural strawberry jam without added sugar also cut up into small pieces so it's not a choking hazard. We always offer up the food first and then give her the boob afterwards as actual food is still just for practice and not actual nutrition.

We have opted for not really spoon-feeding anymore, we let her control what she eats of it and how much she eats. It makes it so we divide it, we chose the time and what's offered while she chooses how much of it she wants to eat. We offer food three times a day and a snack somewhere in there too. She doesn't end up eating that much of it each time, but we are getting somewhere at least.

I get myself some avocado toast for myself before sitting down at the table next to her and eating myself. "Is it yummy Ellie? Mommy thinks her food is yummy so I hope you do too" I always talk to her whenever I can as she seems to enjoy hearing my voice.

As we eat a sleepy Selena comes into the kitchen "morning" she says and jawns "good morning" I say more cheerfully than her.

"How are you that awake so early?" she says and pour herself some coffee "i'm used to it by now. She is always up early and if I am grumpy, she gets grumpy so it's all about fake it till you make it" I laugh.

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Now my mom, Liz, Abigail have joined us, and we are all getting ready for the main event. Ellie is still playing here and one of my mom's friends are watching her in the playroom and will be watching her until my mom comes and take over after the reception. It's one of her friends that I've known for years and I'm close with too, so I trust her. She has raised four kids herself too so I know she can handle it. I'm really nervous to leave Ellie in anyone's hands but my own, but I know that I need to get used to it at some point. Sadly, I can't always be there, so I need to be able to trust others with her.