Everything I Didn't Say [c.h.]

five

09.02.13

Hey sweetheart,

I get to call you my girlfriend now and I want to dance around just thinking about earlier.

I really liked hugging you. It makes me feel warm and weird inside. I'd rather just hug you all day instead of getting jealous all the time. Before practice started, I got jealous of MICHAEL. MICHAEL. My best mate. And it was just because you kept talking about him like I wasn't even in the picture.

When I say that I really like you, I mean it. But it doesn't feel that you reciprocate the feeling sometimes.

I just want to know if you 100% like me and only me. Selfish, I know, but you're perfect. Absolutely perfect. You have this quirky personality that I get the privilege of seeing almost every day of the week. You're stunning, inside and out. That's a rare thing, and I can not write down or say enough how lucky I am to have you. You laugh at everything, and some find it annoying, but I find that beautiful. You even laughed when I kissed you after band practice. You're such a happy person, and I need someone like you in my life.

Shît, I sound so whipped. I've never felt like this before, not even with Ashley. I wasn't wrapped around her finger like how I am with you. Is it crazy to feel like this after knowing you for less than a month? It's even crazier that we're in a relationship now, though, huh?

Do you remember that day I gave you a ride on your first day of school? And when we kissed?

Thoughts about corrupting you completely flew from my mind and I want to apologize that I've ever had those thoughts in the first place. If you don't want to drink, okay, I won't pressure you to. Same thing for smoking. I just feel so ashamed that I ever thought about corrupting someone as pure and GOOD as you. I'm not sure if you even think that I still want to corrupt you or not, but I won't do anything to try and corrupt you anymore.

I really like you, and only you.

I'm just waiting for the day until you feel 100% the same about me. Because even if we are in a relationship, I could see that you're still a bit doubtful. Of what exactly, I'm not sure. But I'll be waiting.

- Calum x

P.S. You are everything I want.

P. P. S. And everything I need. :)