Everything I Didn't Say [c.h.]

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09.06.13

Hey sweetheart,

SO much has happened today, I don't even know what to write.

First off, Ashley's back. I'll be honest, I was a lot more sure of how I felt or how I DIDN'T feel about her when she wasn't at school anymore. When I saw her at the back the auditorium, I couldn't believe it. And then I felt angry. Angry at the fact that she's back and will most likely try to ruin our relationship. I won't let that happen. Not to us. Not to you.

Second, I'm so sorry that I let you think that Ashley still affected me as much as she did almost two years ago. She doesn't. Like I said, she was THEN, and you are NOW. I much prefer it that way.

Third, thank you for opening up to me. It makes me feel a lot better about my efforts. I know I'm still not giving it my all, but I think I've put everything in these weird letters I'm writing to you. Letters that I'll probably keep in my bag just so I know no one, not even Luke, will read these.

Lastly, you're an amazing cuddle partner (I know for a fact I told you this before). But I also think that I sleep easier when I sleep next to you. It feels more than nice. It feels right.

See, this is why I don't say the things I write out loud to you. Because one, I would've scared you off by now, and two, it's cheesy as fück.

- Squishy, apparently :)