Everything I Didn't Say [c.h.]

twenty two

11.23.13

Hey s̶w̶e̶e̶t̶h̶e̶a̶r̶t Sue,

I screwed up.

Big time.

Oh my god.

Sorry isn't going to be good enough for you.

I'm not good enough for you. I'll never be good enough. I knew it before I asked you to be my girlfriend, but I had this ridiculous idea that we'd be good for each other anyways.

But what I did last night was unacceptable.

I already knew what last night was going to do us, I don't know why I still tried to stay with you.

I just can't imagine my future without you.

My head is pounding, my chest is really hurting, I feel like I can't breathe and I'm crying as I'm writing this. FÜCK. Why did I even write that, I can't even begin to imagine how you feel.

I̶ l̶o̶v̶e̶ y̶o̶u̶ s̶o̶ m̶u̶c̶h.