My Inner Workings

Tell me

Tell me what's wrong with me!
Come on, tell me!
You've told me before,
Nothing stopped you then,
What's stopping you now?
Tell me!
You raised me believing I was broken,
So I grew up to believe you.
All my life you told me to change,
To cut away,
And I tried,
And I failed,
So I hid,
And I ran,
But I couldn't escape you.
You were my wind,
You were everywhere.

In every movie,
In every song,
In every picture,
In every book,
You were there,
I breathed you,
And you poisoned me.
You made yourself, my normal,
Made me believe, I deserved it,
That I deserved your poisons,
That I deserved your whispers and your stares,
All of your loud, drowning opinions,
And your hateful, toxic presence.

You keep telling me, I'm broken,
But now, I know better than to believe you,
Cuz if I put aside all the shame you handed me,
All the hate,
If I became the child that didn't understand your language again,
If I faced that mirror naked,
I know what I would find,
I know, I would love it,
I know what ever it is, that you deemed broken within me,
There is nothing broken about it.
So come on, tell me!
Tell me, I dare you!
Tell me what's wrong with me!
See if you can make me believe it.