Now I'm Just Numb

Chapter 8

Hi guys! I'm sooooo sorry that I haven't updated but literally just as I said I was doing the 'Twelve updates of Stump' challendge my brother used up all our internet for the month!! I couldn't look up any thing it was awful *shuder*.
Ok , this rambling does have a point so happy birthday Patrick!!!! And I'm gonna do this updating challenge anyway so heres an update. I hope you guys like it and sorry again.

Joe's pov

I hear a quick knock at the door. Who could that be?

There's a second knock a bit more urgent this time and I get up and hand Declan to Andy. Since he and Ruby are almost the same age I offered to mind him.

Declans only a few months younger than Ruby but I can already see soooo much of Patrick in him...and Elisa.

He's a perfect mash up of both.

However he doesn't share his father's love for sleep. Ruby has been asleep for almost an hour now, but Declan nah. More interested in what were doing.

I open the door. "Patrick, Hi!" I say and hug the smaller guy. "Hay Joe," he pants and smiles. "Did you walk here?" I laugh.

He shakes his head "its a long story, can I please come inside?" He asks as if not sure he's wanted.

"Sorry of course," I close the door behind him. Its so great to see Patrick looking healthy-ish and alert. I turn around and lead him to where me and Andy were before he knocked.

I take Declan from Andy who's eyes light up. He jumps up and engulfs Patrick in a hug. "How are you man?" Andy smiles.

Patrick looks down shlyly "Good, been better but.." He leaves the sentence open then laughs nervously.

He stands there awkwardly for a second, looking as if he's arranging his thoughts all the while I'm playing with Declan's hands trying to tire him out.

Then all of a sudden Patrick comes back with a hopeful expression.

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Patrick's pov

I clear my throat. I'm abit taken aback by Declan. He's got Elisa's eyes. Seeing them bring a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach.

He looks at Joe and Andy differently to me. I've only been gone a week or two. But that's all it takes says a voice in my head.

"Patrick were you gonna say something?" I nod and shift my eyes to Joe, say it Stump. "Thank you so much for looking after Dec for me," I say.

Joe smiles "No problem, him and Ruby are getting along really well!" I smile as well "but can I have him back," it sounds unsure in my voice.

Joe doesn't say a thing and my gaze flashes to Andy. His expression is set "Were sorry Patrick but... we all met up and we....don't feel Declan would be safe with you at this moment in time," he adds quickly upon seeing my smile drop.

I take a step back. Are they serious? It feels like I've been slapped in the face. How could they do this. I'd never hurt Dec, a thought which sends bile into my mouth.

Joe begins to say something else but I just hold up a hand. "Don't," I stop him. "Just don't," I sass him and storm out of the house.

My mind is reeling. That did not just happen.

Quickly I set off down the road before one of them follows me. I sigh no way am I going back to Pete's right now. Pretty sure if I did he'd try and 'cheer me up,' well maybe I want to be angry and pissed off.

I almost laugh, in a flash, a flash is all it took for my life to change...again.

Before I know it my feet have walked me to a bar not too far from mine and Pete's house. I walk up to the bar and take a seat.

The barman looks at me waiting for my order. "A beer please and keep them coming," I say and hand him some money.

He holds it and asks "Are you over 21?" I smurk "Unfortunately yes," I think to the running joke of me still looking 19 and how I found the 'cure to growing older'.

I  thank him when he hands me the bottle of beer. Picking it up and taking a mouthful I'm releved when my racing mind starts to fuzz and slow.

I never used to drink that much before, maybe I should make up for lost time.

Oh and wattpad keeps merging my author's notes so thats weird...