Now I'm Just Numb

Chapter 5

Patrick's pov

I woke up with all the guys around me. I thought it was a dream until Andy squeeked a "Hi."

They all look so afraid to talk, like what ever they'll say will smash me into a thousand pieces. Well too late you've been beaten to it.

"Hay bud, the doctors said you can leave right now," Pete says in a soft tone.

"I'm not a child," I mumble but no one hears as I sit up in the bed. Pain goes through my head and I gasp. Joes sees "Hay no sudden movements, your body's still-" "Healing," I finish.

Its not my body, that's numb.

"Get well soon!" The receptionist calls as I fallow the guys outside to Pete's car.

He gets into the front, Andy and Joe take the back so I climb into the passenger seat. An awkward silence falls into the car.

I feel six eyes burning into the sides of my head."Em, are you taking me home?" I ask, the silence being too much.

"Nope, as your still recovering your staying at my house," Pete says trying to keep his tone neutral. "Oh good," I sigh. "Really? You don't want to go home?" Joe says  from the back seat.

I shrug "Honestly, home is the last place I want to be. Too many memories," I admit. "Phew we were worried you wouldn't want to come ," Per says and the others laugh.

I put on a smile and stare out the window.

Its not long we pull up into Pete's driveway. The others pile out while I take my time. Not like I'm in a hurry. Pete unlocks the door and we go into his living room.

"Where's Meagan and Saint?" I wonder aloud. "Oh she's staying at her parents for awhile. They wanted to spend some time with Saint," Pete replys smoothly.

I nod but its obvious its so Pete can keep an eye on me. Thinking about Saint makes me think about Declan.

As the guys sit down on the couch I lean awkwardly on the wall and look down. "When can I see Declan?" I whisper to no one in particular.

Pete clears his throat "Well he's still at your mom's house." "But when?" I interrupt him and look up. Pete smiles "Soon." I nod. They probably don't want me hurting him.

"Sit down Trick were gonna watch a movie," Joe calls and puts in a DVD. I trudge over to the couch and sit down hugging my knees. Pete hands me a beer which I accept gladly as the theme song from the ghost busters begins to play. My mouth twitches, they know me so well.

I take a sip and zone out of the movie. I love this movie but I can't concentrate on it.

I can't stay with Pete forever, eventually I'll have to go back home and most likely talk to her...

I don't even notice until its empty that I've finished mine and Joe's beer. A warm feeling spreads though me and my heavy eyelids close over.

Pete's pov

Eventually, Patrick falls asleep and Andy turns off the movie. None of us was actually watching it, it was more so to bring Trick back to some normality.

"Pete, maybe don't let him drink too much," Andy says in a worried tone while cleaning away the bottles Trick drank.

"Yeah sorry I never should've given him any, I was just trying to calm my nerves more," I laugh .

Me and Joe walk over to him. "I'll grab his arms." Joe says and I nod taking his legs in my hands.

"On three, one two three," We lift him but I almost let go. "Shit sorry," I mumble. Patrick feels lighter.

I suppose he's been sleeping more than eating but I make a mental note to monitor his diet. Quickly we lay him in my spare bedroom. Joe covers him in blankets and Andy turns off the light, he looks so peaceful.

We re-group in the kitchen."Are you gonna tell him?" Joe asks he sounds tired. "Maybe we should wait. He won't take it well," I say.

I look at Andy, he nods "That's true but the longer we leave it, the worse he'll take it." He dose have a point.

"Fine I'll tell him tomorrow about Elisa," I say through gritted teeth. It won't go well.