Now I'm Just Numb

Chapter 11

Author's Note:
Guys I'm actually soooo sorry for my lack of updating. It's not cool. From now on I'll try and get back to some kind of schedule.
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Patrick's Pov

I look out the car window and sigh. It's always raining these days. I turn my attention back on the road and notice the lack of traffic.

"Well it is two in the morning," I say out loud for no reason in particular.

Probably just to test that my hearing and voice still work as I sure as heck don't feel anything anymore. She took that with her. And it's not that I'm being dramatic,I physically feel empty.

And that's it.

Funny how heart break does that to you. Sure I've been through break ups before but none this painful. Especially when it caught me off guard that badly.

How can I come back from something like this? None of the guys understand. I take one look at them and all I see is pity in their eyes. They think I'm broken beyond repair.

I smirk to that thought.

But it's true though.

I can't go on with this situation. She won't take me back,I know that. So what's the point of anything then?

What's the point of going on when the only person who made me feel anyway good about myself is gone? The person who was the reason why I woke up in the morning.

I pull over by the side of the road and kill the engine.

I see my hands shake in the faint light which brings another smirk to my face. Wow, Patrick pull yourself together! Nothing is worse than self loathing.

Unfortunately I'm too good at it to stop. It's like it's become a routine. A kind of skill I've perfected in the recent days.

So what's wrong with me then? I wipe my face with my hands.

Is this low self esteem or depression? One thing is for sure...I'm tried of feeling like this. My mind is already made.

I start the car again and drive back onto the road. If I hurry I can get to the bridge before it starts to get bright.

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Sorry if that was kind of depressing but I've recently gone through a bad break up so I'd to let it out a little...