Now I'm Just Numb

Chapter 7

Ok so just letting you guys know I acyually really like Elisa and her and Patrick are really adorable,definately one of my OTPs.

Pete"s pov

"Hey brendon !" I say and give the taller lanky man a hug. After he gives me a look. I recognise it straight away-

Worry.

I've been keeping him updated on Patrick's state of mind and I think its the perfect time for him to talk or else it'll eat him from the inside out.

Unfortunately I know how it feels and no way in hell is Patrick gonna go through that.

"So did you tell him?" Brendon asks in a quiet voice. I nod. His eyes widen "And how did he take it?" I bite my lip.

"Well I just told him then you came to the door." "Then why are we standing here?!" Brendon whisper shouts. I agree and lead him into my kitchen.

Stopping in my tracks I see Patrick isn't here.

Brendon notices too. Quickly I run to the spare room but Trick isn't there either. Shit!

"I never should've left him!" I blurt out and run a hand through my cherry red hair. Brendon turns to me "Chill Pete, he's probably just out clearing his head. It is a lot to take in," he says trying to calm me and himself.

"...yeah that's true," I reply. Wait I left my car keys on the counter. I check and see they're gone like Patrick. B is right.

"Pete you ok?" Brendon asks in a soft tone, eyes full of concern."Yeah just a little worried," I admit with a laugh. He smiles at my honesty.

Trick just needs time to himself. I suppose I've been like a babysitter recently. Still I can't shake a weird feeling in my stomach.

Patrick's pov

"Elisa's kind of left,"

Pete's words kept ringing in my head.

A werid unknown feeling overwhelmed me so when he went for the door I went for his keys and the backdoor.

I found Pete's car a little bit away and sat into the driver's seat.

I have to get away!

You can't run from sadness but I'm sure as heck gonna try.

I place the key in the ignition and turn it, the engine roars to life and so does my heart rate. I feel my forehead sweat as I put my hands to the wheel. What's happening to me?

A flashback of driving with Elisa appears behind my eyelids-

She looks so beautiful. She's laughing at something I said. I have a grin on my face. I look at her for too long then bang!

The crash wakes me from the flashback. My breathing becomes hard and my hand flies to my chest as if it can help. Its so painful, I can't breath!

Am I going to die?!

***

I've never had a panic attack that bad. Ever.

Eventually I get my breathing and heart rate to a normal rate. But my body keeps shaking. When my legs are strong enough I get out of Pete's car.

Looks like I'm walking.

What am I going to do? I can't talk to Elisa, try reason with her. The love of my life has left so what's left in my life?

I shake my head as if I can physically get rid of my thoughts. Thinking like that hurts my head and chest.

I turn another corner and continue walking. I wonder who was at the door. Maybe it was Andy or Joe or Meagan with Saint. Saint.....Declan.

Holy smokes I haven't seen him since the accident!

I heard Joe was minding him last. I quicken my pace and head to his house. I'm an awful father, a grim smile appears on my face, how could I?

Guess I can't do anything right anymore....