Ilang months na din ang nakalipas simula nung nag end yung samin ni Tako. It doesn't really seem that hurt me so much since a had been texting other guys from the past part of the book. I'm easy to feel attached with someone lalo na if they've been acting so kind sakin. The word crush will be the exact definition of how am I gonna explain what I felt before, but sometimes I took it seriously and trust people that easy. Madali lang nila ako mauto, o mapaniwala lalo na pag they promised to me. I'm still young and I know that I still have a lot of things to learn na gaya ng sinasabi ng mga most of the adults, "Bata ka pa, marami ka pang matututunan." I really hate to hear that sa ibang nakakatanda sakin, but everytime I learn something napapa-isip nalang ako na, "Oo nga noh?" Sometimes its really hard for us to accept, pero habang tumatanda tayo na parami na ng parami yung experiences natin, dun lang natin maiintindihan yung mga sinasabi nila satin, and hindi mo namamalayan na yung mga mas younger na sayo ngayon, sometimes nasasabi mo na din sakanila yon.
Arjay from last chapter suddenly stopped messaging me for weeks, well I don't like him anyway, (Jokes on him) he looks red flag for me, although he's a respectful man towards me. He always say he loves me but I never felt it. I think he's just saying that to me in able to fool me, but girl, this woman will never fall on that trick! It's only like... Less than an hour since we met tapos mahal na agad niya ako? Like... Girl?! Duda ako HAHAHAHA! A sudden love and a rush feelings will never last, pero di ko nilalahat! There were people na sobrang genuine sa isa't isa, like from day 1 until end talaga, pero yun ay para sa mga taong tinadhana talaga na maging sila, but does tadhana really exist? I don't know, but all I know is, people do their own tadhana, at kung pinili niyo yung isa't isa, then you guys are making your "tadhana" na maglalast kayo until the end.
Pero of course, pano mo malalaman na kayo nga? Siyempre unang una makikita mo yan sa effort (Wag kayong bias, effort niyo sa isa't isa, hindi lang one or the another) But in my case, if Arjay really likes me or "love" me, he will never leave like that! Di magpaparamdam? For weeks? I told you na he's a red flag, tsaka who does that? Leaving people after you say something that makes them fall into you? Ahh... Playboys do that, yung tipong susuyuin ka, tapos syempre magpapakilala pa yan sa mga magulang mo especially yung sa mama mo? Tapos pag alam na nila na nahulog ka na, bigla ka nilang iiwan na parang hindi nila nagulo yung nananahimik mong buhay?!! Goosshh! Kayong mga manloloko ha?! Kung gusto niyong seryosohin kayo ng taong magugustuhan niyo, ayus-ayusin niyo yung mga sarili niyo! Kasi yung mga niloloko niyong mga babae ngayon? Para yan sa mga taong may magandang intensyon sa mga buhay nila, huwag niyo namang pahirapan! Lalo na sa mga ghoster? Yun ang mga pinaka hate na hate kong nabubuhay sa mundong to. I really hate people leaving my life without any word at all, I mean to those people who once courted me ganon? Kasi normal lang naman mawalan ng mga friends sa buhay natin. Pero yung mga manliligaw na yan? Yung biglang mawawala tapos magwawonder ka nalang kung nasan na sila? And worst nandun na pala sa tao na easy to get nila? HA HA HA HA! Yan pala gusto niyo ha... ?
But really, hindi to about sa fling things, panliligaw or etchetera. I don't like them to ghost me kasi ako yung nag-iisip if they are ok ba or something? Kasi parang iniwan nila ako without any reasons eh, lalo na pag di mo na sila mahagilap? Like they don't have any social media to reach them out if they are ok. I'm just worried for them kasi they used to be one of the special people in my life and I wanted to know if ok ba sila sa mga buhay buhay nila ganon.
But it's not my business already, sa mga taong nanloko sakin sana mabuhay kayo ng marangal ganon! hahaha. So what I was saying is, if iiwan mo yung tao, magsabi ka nalang kasi lalayo ka din naman, if you're hurting to leave them like you can't even leave a person habang buhay, then stay. At sa mga taong nainform naman sa pag alis nila, move forward without any negative side comments, sisiraan pa kasi diba? And kung natawag kayong immature sila pa yung masama hahahah, well...Truth hurts.
I remember what happened sakin around November 2020, the first guy who ghosted me. I'm over it now, I just laugh everytime I remember that day, I'm happy as long as he's happy, huwag nalang niya siguro gagawin yun sa iba,kasi it was really not ok hehe.
September 29,2021 Naretrieve ko yung main account ko, but that day, I really had a hard time to choose what should I delete. If you're retrieving an account kasi and kumu detected that you had an account beside sa banned account, they are going to make you choose, either delete the 2nd account para maretrieve yung main or delete the banned account and keep your burner. In my 2nd account kasi most of the people know that I'm the one who's using the account, but main account have a lot of memories on it from my past teams in kumu, so I chose to not delete my main account.
Most of my friends are not using kumu already dahil busy na din sila sa mga sarili nilang buhay buhay. They are all adults na din kasi, mga ate at kuya, kaya naiintindihan ko din kung bakit di sa lahat ng oras dapat nasa kumu sila. Nung time na naglivestream ako ulit, no one came, upset a little pero I understand naman kasi sino ba naman ako para puntahan pero yun nga, dahil sa wala nga napunta sa livestream ko, ako nalang yung umikot HAHAHAHA.
Bumisita ako sa mga isa sa close friends ko na sila kuya Dex and ate Zay from TP (Team Puyat) and sa ls ni ate Jo na nakilala ko din sa ls ni kuya Kiddo and they are all happy to ban me again, char.
October 3, 2021 Sobrang boring ng buhay ko sa kumu, and I decided to go gala in Newbies you know, baka may makita tayong pogi sa newbie, nakakamiss din mag gagala noh tsaka makipag biruan sa mga tao tapos harutan AHAHAHAH, sobrang sakit na ng ulo ko kaka aral, and since ok ok naman na yung mga grades ko sa ngayon I stopped what I'm doing for a while tapos ayun nga gumala ang binibining ell niyo.
There's no livestreams that interest me, bukod sa puro budol lang ang alam nilang gawin sa livestream, they are all quiet and don't even entertain people, but there's this one livestreamer na napuntahan ko.
At first, I really hesitated to stay there and talk to him/her (he's gay so I don't really know what he/she prefer to be called) but he looks nice and very entertaining person. He/She's Charlie, Charlie isn't the same to newbies, Charlie is more like a shy type person and hindi talaga siya yung into sa diamonds. No one wanted to talk to him that day so I stayed until there's someone sana na magentertain sakanya na alam kong hindi magbabago sakanya sa world ng kumu.
Someone joined his livestream named space738space738, hindi siya naghesitate na magrequest as co-host, as in naghi muna siya and then he talked to us for a while tapos nagulat nalang ako na naka cohost na siya kay Charlie. The time he was there, the livestream went crazy, as in ang ingay, and we all had fun, lalo na nung ininbitahan ako ni Space na umakyat as a co-host sa livestream.
"Binibini? Wala ka bang balak na samahan kami dito sa itaas?" asked Space.
"Nahihiya po ako eh haha" I answered habang naka ngiti. Yawa bat ba kasi naisipan kong magpalit ng username as a binibini, nakakakilig pala talagang matawag ng binibini noh?
"Kanina ka pa diyan sa baba tapos ngayon ka lang nahiya? Tara na up ka na nang marinig naman namin yung boses mo." he requested so nag up nalang din ako.
We're with one other girl, her name is Yna, she's actually acting as a kalog girl, alam mo ba yung mayamang kalog? Tapos merong oras na sometimes her jokes isn't really nice kasi minsan nakaka offend siya ganon, but I kept that thought to myself kasi di ko pa naman siya ganun kakilala diba, what if na misinterpret ko lang diba hahaha, tsaka its hard to judge a person lalo na kung di mo pa sila ganon kakilala.
After ng mga livestream namin, hindi kami yung nagkaka usap, like yung mga direct message ganon, pero pag isa samin naka livestream, kumpleto kami lagi. Charlie always look for kuya Space sa ls kasi promise ko sainyo, pag siya yung kasama niyo, never kayong mauubusan ng kwento. As time passed, Charlie turned into a "busy" person, hindi na namin siya gaano nakikita sa kumu dahil nga nagkaroon na rin siya ng work, and kuya Space and I left nalang sa circle of friends namin. Lagi kaming magkasama sa livestream, and habang nagtatagal yung usapan namin, doon mas lalo kaming nagiging malapit.
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Because of Kumu (Part 2)
NonfiksiIt was a NON-FICTION tag-lish story, It was kind of romantic drama thing, it was all about my Kumu Journey (Kumu is a friendly filipino app), about who once I loved before, about my friends, and how I almost dropped my classes because of using it. ...
