[HxH Fanfiction] Our Secret - Feitan x Phinks (English Ver)

𝐗𝐈- 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐱 𝐌𝐢𝐬𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐮𝐧𝐞 (last chapter)

"I will give Phinks an ultimatum... He will have to choose between the Phantom Troupe or me."

... What am I talking about ? Why am I saying something so horrible ? Huh...?

... Phinks... I'm so sorry. I think my love for you drove me crazy. Even if I was already insane, I completely lost my mind.

I don't want to hurt you, I don't want to impose anything on you, I just want you to be happy... With me...

"If he chooses me, we will both go to live together far from here, isolated from the rest of the world until the end of our days, totally independent, the life I've always dreamed of. No longer being someone's paw or tool but a being free to move alongside the one he loves."

No... That's not what I meant...! Even if it's my dearest dream, I don't have the right to think like this... Only his happiness should matter to me, so why...? Why do I keep saying such insane things ?!

" I'm sure he will too since he's the only one who understands me."

That's what I want to believe, but I know very well that he won't get used to it ! I'm just going to be misunderstood, it's the only thing I'm going to win ! So I have to stop-

- ...And if he chooses the Spider...? Shalnark asked me.."

...

Of course...

Phinks can absolutely choose the Spider. It's his right. A self-respecting choice, a rational decision, an impenetrable will.

But...

It's not okay.

Not at all.

"...In this case..."

... It's too late. There is nothing more for me to do. I only have Phinks. I could never accept the idea of ​​losing him. I've always had the habit of being misunderstood. Even though the Phantom Troupe allowed me to be myself without worrying about anything, I now have a reason to live more important than anything else. And if it is taken away from me, I will be obliged to take it back. Phinks won't escape me. Since he is MY reason for living.

"So it will go against the promise he made to me. To be with me forever. So he will die by your side. Or better yet, I'll kill him and after I'll kill myself. That way, we will be together forever, even after death.

- Wh-What ?! Shalnark bellowed, cringing. Are you serious...?

- Well yes, when he made love to me he told me that if souls existed, he would continue to love me after his death. Isn't that beautiful as proof of love ? In that case... I'm sure he won't mind dying by my hand, on the contrary... It's the best death he could hope for."