Living in the red room is hard, but how hard is it when she's the only person left and you're trying to do everything for her
a story between Y/N and Natalia (Natasha)
TW: Panick attack self-harm / I slowly opened my eyes, I felt like I drank too much yesterday, my head was pounding. I slowly tried to sit up, which worked relatively well. I alternately looked left and right to make sure there was no danger.I startled *where am I?* I got up, maybe too quickly because I felt myself losing my balance and lying on the floor. It wasn't my room, or my mother's . It was black and there was an old lamp hanging from the ceiling, which certainly gave me a sense of hope.I didn't know who I was but what I did know was that it couldn't be good. I couldn't remember anything. *omg* i jumped up, *what's my mother's name,* panic rose up in me.* what's my mother's name?* it flooded my mind over and over again. Tears welled up in my eyes,* I can't remember, I can-" I slid down the wall I was standing in front of and pulled my legs up against me. *I can't remember*. I closed my eyes, breathing harder than ever, feeling like I was going to choke at any moment. "St op it!" I whispered over and over again. "Please" With every breath the fear grew. "1...2...3...4...5" I kept counting in my head and after a while I calmed down a bit. Now I just sat there, stared at the wall and let the tears flow freely. I gave myself little tasks to calm myself down. "Y/N go to bed" slowly but surely I got up and crawled under the warm blanket.I hid my body under the blanket so that nothing could peep out of it.
The next day
I woke up to a pounding on the door.I opened my eyes and leaned on my elbow as 3 men stormed into my room."Take her with you!" I couldn't really react when the men grabbed my arms and dragged me out of the room. I tried so hard to last but it didn't work." let me go right now!" Die Männer schien es gar nicht zu interessieren. "waits" The men didn't seem to care er if we give her an injection"*Wait injection?* "Please don't please!!" The men ignored me again and the last thing i remembered was them squirting a liquid down my arm
"Here...exactly!" I heard a woman say. I was shocked and looked to the side. "Hello little ones, I'm doctor lake" She gave me that obliterating look. "I'm here to finish you off,"she said while typing something into her laptop. "Getting ready for what," I asked her. "You'll find out soon enough little ones, I have to take your blood now." I looked at her questioningly. "With a needle?" She rolled her chair back to her desk, "Of course! What are you thinking?" I wiggled my fingers slowly "I'm scared of injections," I whispered softly, "Oh honey, you don't need to be scared, it's okay!" She nodded silently and she came back with a syringe. "It will only take a second okay,"she nodded softly. She carefully pulled up my sweater and stopped. She slowly runs her finger over my hubs and then looks deep into my eyes. "People weren't good to you...weren't they?" I bowed my head. "Hey... look at me" I slowly started to look at her. "It's okay! I'm sorry for what you've had to go through but I promise it will get better okay?" She gives me a small but genuine smile and I was able to return it. "I still have to get some blood now, but I promise you it won't hurt!" I nodded and turned my head to the side. "Should I count to 3?" she asked me but kept the syringe ready. "No, it's okay" I only felt the needle briefly, maybe just 1 second. Docor Lake carefully disinfected the wound and drove back to her desk with the chair, where she took some samples from her. "What is all this here?" I asked doctor lake. She turned to me "Unfortunately I can't tell you, but you will find out soon." The 3 men from beforehand entered the room. "Are you done doctor lake?" I turned my gaze toward the door. "Just a moment," Lake replies and the men leave the room. "Do you have to take more blood from me?" I asked her with an annoyed look. "No, I just want to talk to you!" I was shocked why would she want to talk to me ? She sat back on my bed and examined my arm. "Can you promise me something?"I turn my gaze from Doctor Lake to my arm. "If you're feeling down and have the urge to hurt yourself, talk to me or someone about it okay? Most here are very strict but I'll be there for you if anything needs to be done." I gave her a small smile and squeezed her hand lightly in thanks. "So...we have to change you now!" She untied my hands and I couldn't wait to move my fingers again. She brought me some kind of tracksuit
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Y/N suit
30 minutes later
We walked slowly down the hall, the 3 men were behind me, but still let me run free. I was led into a room where 1 large door was in front of me. "It's almost time!" I looked around again carefully when I heard a loud scream behind the door.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------- First of all I wanted to say thank you for all the readers ❤. I'm still a huge fan of Natasha and I thought long and hard about writing a story like this at all. In any case, I try to write a chapter every day, since I'm also still in school, there could sometimes be small shifts, but it will definitely go further. Anyway, I hope you like the story. See you❤
