"I didn't even get to say I love you..."
This is the story of Hoseok, Yoongi and their 2 kids who are struggling in The Great Depression, with their family. Just as things are starting to look up, the world comes crashing down on them.
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July 30, 1939 (Not my best chapter😭) ___________
Even though things were still shit, some things were looking up.
Hoseok paid the bills with the money he had stashed. They were now equipped with all the necessities. Also, they had food in the house again.
It was like the older took what Yoongi said and thought about it.
The only thing that still hasn't changed is Hoseok's drinking problem, he was still coming home late from the bar drunk off his ass..
Tonight was different though for some odd reason. The older came home right after work and was sitting at the table eating like he used to before shit hit the fan.
Yoongi just sat and watched him eat the fried baloney and cabbage he made. To him this would be the perfect time to talk to his husband. Hoseok was more sober than he usually was, like he could correspond what you were talking about, he looked more tired than anything.
"Is it good?" The young raven asked to start a conversation. His husband just nodded and took another bite. "Can we talk?" He added.
"About?" Hoseok asked, looking up.
"What's been going on these past few months.." Yoongi said. His husband was kind of confused, he's been so drunk he barely remembers half of what went on. "You love me right?" he added.
"Of course I do.. Why would you ask that?" The older asked, shoving more food in his mouth.
"Well for the past couple months it feels like you haven't... You come home drunk off your ass and scream at me and even our children, you throw things then pass out.. It's been like a routine.." Yoongi said, he wanted to get right to the point..
Hoseok just looked at Yoongi, he didn't know what to say. He really did all those things? He remembers drinking, coming home and waking up either on the couch or somewhere else that's not home; everything in between was blurred.
How could he let it get that bad? How could he let it get so bad to the point he made a routine out of it?
He's been drunk nonstop for 3 months, he didn't even give himself time to sober up. This is the first time he's been close to fully sober and it breaks his heart hearing this.
"An apology won't make up for everything I've done, but I'm sorry for being so foolish and an asshole. I will try to work on myself and make better choices.." Hoseok said slowly.
Yoongi was glad to hear that.. Sort of.. He was trying not to get his hopes up.
Hoseok could be saying this because the small amount of alcohol in his system was telling him to. He doesn't want to be skeptical, but it's more of a 'i'll believe it when I see it' type thing. So much has happened as well, making it ten times harder.
This wasn't really much of talking either.. It was more Yoongi making Hobi aware of the situation and apologizing..
All the young raven did was nod and put on a smile that could fool anybody..
"I don't want to tell you this because I'm scared to and I shouldn't have to be, but.. The man who's been coming home these past few months, is not the man I know, love and married.." Yoongi said, sniffling a bit.
"I know..I'll bring him back, I promise." Was all Hoseok replied.. "I love you so much.. I am so sorry.." He added.
"I love you too.." Yoongi replied, those words burned in his throat for some reason..
"I'll work hard, bring things back how they were supposed to be.." Hoseok said, reaching across the table so his husband could hold his hand, which Yoongi took and held it.
"I promise.."
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August 6, 1939 _____________
6 days... 6 short days of normalness, just for it to go exactly how it used to be on day 7.
The coming home late, the stash, the drunken arguments and fits.. They were back..
Yoongi sat on the floor holding a crying Yu-jin to him, trying to calm her down. Dal sat by his side, holding onto his mother like his life depended on it. All while Hoseok was drunk and throwing his usual fit.
The young raven couldn't hold it in anymore, he was sobbing with his little girl. When he looked over at Dal he saw tears on his cheeks too.
"You promised me you son of a bitch.." Yoongi muttered between sobs.. ________ 3 Chapters left. -Chrissy
