The Life of 5sos

Chapter 47

Hi. so idk if we have discussed the ages of the boys but I believe they are all 2012 5 sos.... im probably wrong...........soooooo probably ignore this bye!

Nya's pov

I feel a shifting in the bed. Probably cal. But then i feel his arms wrap around my waist, soon after he digs his face into my neck. I'm still half-asleep so I didn't really mind him wanting to cuddle. Except there was something wrong; his face was wet with tears. also he was sniffling uncontrollably. Calum was never one to cry but when he did he held it in. So that his emotions wouldn't show. I roll over-concerned as to why he was trying not to cry- asking him why he's crying.

"l..luke he... he was crying and... and Ashton was holding him. i'm concerned. Ever since the whole accident ive been concerned. Can you go help Ash comfort him please.'"

I nod my head and hug him. I get up out of bed and walk over to Luke's room. after making sure cal had stopped crying and had fallen asleep, of course. The sight before me breaks my heart. Ashton holding Luke, as Luke sobbed into the pillow.

"Sh..Shh it's ok. It's going to be all ok. The voices in your head don't speak the truth. They are not there for you to listen. Please don't listen to them. Ok. They want to bring you pain. Listen to the words we speak. We speak the truth. Not they, Please Luke stop crying for me ok. I need to you to be ok, for me please. For me." Ashton' s voice grew weak and cracked as he whispered to Luke.

Neither of them knew I was there. So I made my presence known by petting luke's hair. He and Ashton looked up in shock, when they saw me. "go away" , luke mumbled. Ashton scorned him a little then looked at me; as if apologizing for Luke. I shake my head, I know how he feels. Not wanted. but I found people who could bring me back.... them.

Luke needs us. But sadly we coddle him now. Its the hard truth but someone needs to think it. Why not me? since im usually the one who worries the most. but not important at the time." No..NO luke im not going away Ash and I are going to sit here and talk with you. Till you feel better. Got it?" Luke nods his head and pushes over alittle so I can fit. I ask him softly what happened, and why he was crying. His answer shocked me a little.

" I didn't wa...want to be here anymore. Im worthless, stupid, Michael doesn't love me anymore, I only have fans because they pity me. That's why I wanted to jump.... to end it all. Leave you All ALone BECause IM WORTHLESS. OK IM WORTHLESS. I DONT DESERVE TO BE HERE. I JUST WANT TO DIE. I HAVE DEPRESSION, AND I WAS DRUNK AND I JUST WANT LEAVE. YOU HAVE TO HELP ME LEAVE GUYS. PLEASE. PLEASE HELP ME LEAVE. I DONT WANT TO BE A BURDEN TO YOU GUYS ANYMORE. PLEASE just let me leave."

He was hysterical, clutching on to ashton and screaming in to the pillow. I grab his shoulders. Ashton paleing due to Lukes sudden outburst of emotion. Also the tight grip he had on him. I try prying luke off but he soon grabs on to me; sobbing into my shoulder now I rub his back then look at ash. He shrugs his shoulders. I Mouth to him to start singing. He mouths back what. I roll my arms and then start to softly sing the life of the party. Luke always liked that song.

" So when it gets hard don't be afraid.

we don't care what them people say."

Ashton slowly starts to join me. Our voices blending together. Starting to sing Lukes favorite song.

"We don't have to be ordinary.

Make your best mistakes.

'cause we don't have the time to be sorry.

So baby be the life of the party"

We continue singing taking a verse at a time. Luke's sobs begin to calm down, though there are still tears falling from his beautiful blue eyes. I look at him and he looks back. Finally Ash pulls us into a hug.

"Luke you need to get better ok. we are here to help you. Never have we said that you are a burden to us. You are our friend. You are Michaels first love. I think you two need to talk to each other. Then we need to get you a therapist. Its better to talk to someone you don't know about your problems. Then to someone you care for; wether it be platonic or romantic. And the therapist is a professional so she/he will know what to do", said ash as he mumbled it into lukes shirt.

"wh...what about, Nya cant she help me? She wants to be one right? Then we wouldn't have to pay the therapist."

"Luke, Ashton is right you should go see a therapist; Also you really need to have a talk with mikey. You need to fix your relationship. You two were doing so well before all this happened. No depression, Anger, or suicidal thoughts; Just happy go lucky luke and derpy almost bald Michael."

"you gu..guys are right I need to do that. if that's what it takes to get mikey back then i'll do it. I need him back. I want him back. So in the morning ill talk to him. Could you guys sing to me one more time."

" of course Lukey"

I start to sing Weight.

"When you left me alone.

I never knew."

Ashton then joins in.

"You tell me you were happier with him but you want me to stay.

And you tell me that you needed time but,

You pushed me away.

And when you try to take me back.

My heavy heart just breaks.

No I cant lift the weight."

Luke falls asleep peacefully. Ash and I get up and hug.

" thanks" " what for Ash" "for helping me duh." " he just needed someone to stop coddling him. I know how he feels. You did the same thing for me always coddling. Till Luke stopped babying me and I finally woke up."

He nods his head and turns back to his room. I watch luke sleep then finally close the door and walk back to Calums room. I look at the clock to see its 5:30 in the morning. I look at cal and see he has dry tear stains. He probably got up and cried after I left. I don't like it when he cries, or anyone for that matter. But I slowly climb back into bed. He wraps his arms and pulls me close to him. I fall asleep quickly finally content that luke was going to do something with their relationship. As I finally pass out I hear a sniffle and a whispered I Love You. A smile plastered to my face.

Im back. How are you guys? So I listened to Shawn Mendes Well writing this. He's such a beautiful singer. :-)  See you monday~ Nya