The Life of 5sos

Chapter 66

Jaina's P.O.V.

Most people would find being on a plane distracting.
Heavy breathing of first time flyers.
Nagging of parents to their disruptive little kids.
Instructions being said over the intercom.
Shuffling of people moving in their uncomfortable seats.
Flight attendants walking back and forth.
Back and forth.
But trying to really take in what Ashton just confessed, I didnt even notice those things. Everything swept over me. I started feeling trapped. Both inside this air tight oval and not being able to talk this out with Ash. He could have waited to tell me when we were together, not with this cheap text. I understood that he was never the one to keep secrets for long, especially ones that hurt others and weighed him down but to tell me and think I would have taken it lightly was not what he should have expected. He always told me I was his one and only, his outlier of the unique, his heartthrob. If that was all true... then why was it so easy for him to find someone who 'seemed' like me. I needed a true explanation. Not a some stupid thoughtless text. I wasnt gonna text him back and tell him how I felt. Yeah that felt wrong but I didnt know how to tackle this. Should I have told him it was okay and that he didnt mean it or hold a grudge to prove a point that this relationship was my only devotion to dedication. Now I know what Nya was feeling. The same feeling had just set into me. I was jealous that Nyla and Kenzee didnt have to deal with these complicated love problems. Looking over toward them I could see that they were happy. They didnt have anything to worry about, all they had to be anxious about was whether their airplane food was gonna be good or if they would get caught placing strips of gum on the sleepy guy in front of them. I looked over toward Nya and saw the exact opposite. You could see the worry in her. Her feet shaking, tapping her pen on the armrest, frowning. She was showing all the feelings I was keeping inside. Then I looked back down at my lap and made up my mind. I didnt wanna drag this out into a big problem amd hold a grudge toward Ashton. Love messes with his heart and makes him do bad things he later regrets. I didnt wanna put him through that. Instead I would just think of what I would say and wait for the right time. Which would probably be when we met at the landing airport considering he would wanna hug me forever to make me feel better. I looked at my jeans and pulled at them. Making them snap back to my leg. There were so many hours left of being on this plane and this chair isnt the best. Boredom was kicking in and we had only gotten on a few hours ago. Grabbing my phone from my jean pocket I leaned forward and pulled my earphones out of the pocket to the seat in front of me. I plugged them into my phone and hit shuffle to my music. The lady said to turn everything I had off but, fuck it. Fast paced music with beats you couldn't resist tapping your feet to picked up my mood and soon enough I felt as though I wasnt sad anymore. Everything was okay and it was 'just a mistake' for him to do that. I trust him.

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A flight attendant pulled out one side of my earphones and tapped me on the shoulder telling me my food was placed on the sliding table in front of me. I didnt realise I had fell asleep and was startled to see that on the digital clock toward the front it showed that the flight was almost over. I rubbed my eyes and began eating the ravioli and breadroll she brought over. It wasnt all that good but it was just enough to keep me full for the rest of the flight. Longing hours passed and we were walking off the plane to the airport for our luggage. Walking into the airport it was nice and cold. The feeling of walking into one was always comforting even though it wasnt home. We all decided through group text that we would meet the boys at a cafe in the place and talk about what to do next there.

Hey, Nyla here. This chapter wasnt all that great but it was just a filler on how Jaina felt after being told by Ashton what he did. Anyways ill be back here tuesday so bye! ~Nyla