Instant Spark

Chapter 12

I feel the music and as I get ready to start singing and I notice lizzie looking at me longingly

I walked through the door with you
The air was cold
But something about it felt like home somehow
And I, left my scarf there at your sister's house
And you've still got it in your drawer even now

I smile as I hear the beat and start nodding as I sing

Oh, your sweet disposition
And my wide-eyed
We're singing in the car, getting lost upstate
Autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place
And I can picture it after all these days

And I know it's long gone and that magic's not here no more
And I might be okay but I'm not fine at all

'Cause there we are again on that little town street
You almost ran the red 'cause you were lookin' over at me
Wind in my hair, I was there
I remember it all too well

Photo album on the counter
Your cheeks were turning red
You used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin-sized bed
And your mother's telling stories 'bout you on the tee-ball team
You told me 'bout your past thinking your future was me

And I know it's long gone and there was nothing else I could do
And I forget about you long enough to forget why I needed to

'Cause there we are again in the middle of the night
We're dancing 'round the kitchen in the refrigerator light
Down the stairs, I was there
I remember it all too well, yeah

And maybe we got lost in translation
Maybe I asked for too much
But maybe this thing was a masterpiece 'til you tore it all up
Running scared, I was there
I remember it all too well

And you call me up again just to break me like a promise
So casually cruel in the name of being honest
I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here
'Cause I remember it all, all, all
Too well

Time won't fly, it's like I'm paralyzed by it
I'd like to be my old self again
But I'm still trying to find it
After plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own
Now you mail back my things and I walk home alone
But you keep my old scarf from that very first week
'Cause it reminds you of innocence
And it smells like me
You can't get rid of it
'Cause you remember it all too well, yeah

'Cause there we are again when I loved you so
Back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known
It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well

Wind in my hair, you were there, you remember it all
Down the stairs, you were there, you remember it all
It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well

I smile to myself at the situation I'm in in a recording studio as I'm brought out my thoughts "that was perfect Katie you can come out and have a 5 min break while John does what he does" I smile and nod as I walk out to lizzie and chloe taking some more water "hey honey opinions guys what did you think how did I sound" chloe gets up and hugs me "you sounded amazing I'm so proud of you" I smile and hug her tighter not saying anything and lizzie grabs my hand "sad but amazing the second song was more upbeat and you didn't seem as sad but your voice was amazing" she squeezes my hand and I let go of chloe and hug lizzie tight hiding my face in her neck and mumble "thank you lizzie" she rubs my back and I just hold her taking in her amazing smell, we break apart after a minute and sit and talk until Sarah calls for me "ok Katie your doing great while your doing this song ill order us all some food " I smile and walk into the booth "fooooooood yessss" I say excitedly and they all laugh at me I grab the headphones and put them on comfortablely and give the thumbs up waiting for the music I smile at the next song and laugh a lil as I hear the music start shit that's my que go Katie