Eliza and Felix

Chapter 11

After that day me and Felix began to hang out more and it was wonderful I was currently texting him and I began to ask him questions.
Eliza: Felix I had a huge crush on you in middle school and I mean huge. Ik it's late to tell you and all but I just wanted to let you know.
Felix: why are you telling me this.
Eliza: I don't know I just wanted you to know.
Felix: Eliza why are you telling me this I like you but I pushed these feelings down cause I know you don't like me and you telling me this makes them come back up. So why are you telling me this
Eliza:  Because I do like you I just don't know how to tell you.
Felix was silent, he didn't text after that . The next day I went to school and Felix started holding my hand. His friends would make fun of us so I would let go. A few weeks go by and I give Felix little hints to discover what imma do but he didn't get any hit. It was Tuesday it wasn't cold but wasn't hot it warm with a nice breeze blowing by. I decided to go up to Felix. " puppy hi I have something important to talk to you about." He turned around and looked at me "what is it." I had a whole plan but I was so nervous about it and decided to trust my self. I took one step forward and said "Will you be mine!" He looked stunned. I hated the way I asked him so I just walked away. I couldn't walk one step because he grabbed my arm and made me face him. "Eliza yes I'll be yours, I'll be your boyfriend." He pulled me in and hugged me. I couldn't help but cry tears of joy. I went to my other class smiling. It was great calling Felix mine. Day after day I ran into his arms and hugged him, best part was when he would drop me off at my classes after lunch. But this lunch was different. Me and Felix where holding hand and heading upstairs to reach my teachers class room. I hugged and as always and when we let go Felix kissed me. On my lips. I felt my face turn the brightest red it has ever been, I've just had my first kiss. And it was great. The days I've spent with him turned into weeks. We finally planned on telling our parents and we planned on telling them on the Fourth of July which was in 8 months. Little did we know his parents had already found out. The bell to go home rang and I casually went to the spot where I meet Felix so we can walk out together. He told me to be carful since his mother found where I lived. I went to go take the bus and Bella but didn't talk the whole time and I took Felix's words serious and I was careful I knew what her car looked like so I watched for it my whole ride home, i got off at my normal bus stop and I walked home. I entered my house and went up to my room. I practically jumped on my bed I removed my phone from my pocket and in that moment a random number texted me. She claimed to be Felix's mother and asked me to call her. I did so and she was so nice to me. She wanted to grab lunch with me and Felix to talk about the whole us dated. I gladly agreed to go have lunch with her and Felix. It was gonna be this weekend but today was Friday it could be tomorrow or Sunday. I waited for her to tell me when at what time where and what day. She replied with Sunday at this nice restaurant and it was close by house. I agreed and waited for Sunday. I went to sleep and was excited to go to the park and see Felix. I slowly drifted off to sleep. I saw people. A lovely couple, with a woman holding a baby, and a toddler clinging on to its mother's leg. The woman had a very round belly. She must be having another baby. "Felix." The woman cried. I walked a bit closer to them and noticed they where only in there late twenties. "I won't leave you I promise I love you and I won't stop loving you." Said the man. The toddler looked at me. He had big mixed color eyes just like mine. Blue around is eye color a light brown so light that it could be hazel, and gold rings. His hair was pitch black, he looked just like my Felix but with my eyes and nose. I fell to my knees and started crying but I didn't know why. The woman noticed me and came up to me as well as her child along with who I assume is her husband. The child let go of his mother and ran up to me. And hugged me. "Hello Eliza," said the man. "Would you like to hold our kids." I didn't reply but they still handed me their children. The baby had my light brown and golden locks. Although the hair was short you can still see it. I held the baby in my arms with the boy laying on my lap. I believe I'm dreaming. It's a nice dream. The woman was very pretty and she was happy with her husband they are a lovely couple. I kissed the baby's head and rubbed the top of the boys head. I smiled. But when I smiled I woke up to reality. It was Sunday. My mother came into my room with a smile on her face. I told her that I had to get ready. I got up and hopped into the shower. I ran out put a nice shirt and pants on. And quick ran to the place I was going to meet Felix and his mother. I passed by the park then the ice cream shop. I saw the restaurant and stop running I walked and try to catch my breath. I reached the front of the restaurant and took a deep breath before opening the door. I walked in and I felt so nervous I quickly spotted Felix and his mother. She was so beautiful her hair was purple she also has glasses just like me and Felix. She was shorter then the both of us and I'm only 5'5 she was covered in tattoos and I thought it was awesome. She has so many piercings I looked at her in amazement. "Hello Mrs. it's so wonderful to finally meet you." I say as I walk over to the table I reach out my hand to shake her's but she declines it. I sit down across from her with Felix sitting text to me. She asks me many questions the whole time. I don't even remember getting food. But I do remember how Felix offered his hand for me to hold but i was to nervous to hold it.  She kept telling her life story. I didn't understand why. me nor Felix even got to say anything. Once we all finished our food she told us the most heartbreaking thing. "You two are over done with, I won't allow you to be with her. You guys are only sophomores wait till your guys seniors then we can revisit this conversation and maybe you guys can date. Felix You wear your heart on your sleeves do you even know why love means you two are just friends you two don't have true feelings for each other I bet you two don't even know what you want to do with your life. It's just the hormones you two don't really love each other and you two can't just say I love you and believe that you two love each other." I was well aware but I do truly love Felix but with everything she said it made my heart feel like it shattered. I didn't wanna look at Felix. I was on the verge of crying. His mom payed for the food me and Felix went outside with his mother only a few feet away from us. I walked out the door wanting to cry but his mom gave me a hug "if this is true love you two will go back to each other no matter what, now you just have to wait and see." She let go of me and Felix opened his arms and gave me a hug. Once we let go I walked home and didn't look back I didn't say bye it was just that hug. I couldn't look back because if I did I would fall to my knees and cry. I walked up my driveway and entered my house. I went up to my room and cried. It was only 7:45 PM. I cried and cried I did my best to get some sleep only because I have school tomorrow. I don't remember falling asleep I only remember waking up with really puffy eyes. I got up and go ready for today I put on a hoodie and sweats and left the house and decided to walk to school instead of taking the bus I didn't wanna see Bella I didn't even wanna see Henry. I didn't want to see anyone and Ik it's bad cause I should see them. I walked around my huge high school but still seeing Felix at every corner. I know we were forced to break up but not being able to call him mine made me wanna cry. I wanted to run up to him and kiss him like I did when I had a bad day, but all I can do now is look at his face and cry. Lunch was the hardest to deal with. I went with an old friend group who still loved me dearly and allowed me to hang out with them it was a rainy day ,and the day after the break up, so we went to the stairs and started eating lunch there till my friends came for me and forced me to go with them i didn't wanna go i didn't wanna see his face I didn't wanna hate myself again but they dragged me there. He tried to wave but all I could do was cry. Day after day we passed by each other until he gave my the paper heart I made him the day I asked him out at lunch. It made me sick that I wanted to throw up but why. Why did I wanna throw up, was it because I couldn't let go ,why did I wanna vomit. I left and went to my friend group that wasn't far away and they helped me calm down. Clarisa held me till I was done crying. The bell rang for us to go to our fifth period so I walked. Then the end of the school day came, I always waited in one spot for Delia d I find myself there, in that one spot waiting for him till I realized that it won't work like that and I just need to walk out alone, alone for the rest of the school year. So I walked all the way home. Opened my door and went to my room. Yet today is another day of crying. The next day was different. I decided to try to cut my emotional ties to Felix. And I went to our group of friends, where he was, and talked to them. Felix was behind me a few feet away and he want up close to me and reached over my shoulder and rested his hand there. Felix he's so close I wanted to cry I wanted to hug him I wanted to kiss him I wanna hold him. But yet all I can do is freeze and let my face turn red. "Aww look Eliza is blushing." Felix noticed and wouldn't stop smiling at me and it made me smile more. He wouldn't stop doing things that flustered me. My friends noticed and tried to keep us close when the bell rang and I was happy it did. I didn't have to disrespect his mother's wishes so I ran to the stairs and waited for my teacher to open the door. Suddenly Felix came from up the stairs and looked at me. He went up close to me and pined me against a wall it made my face turn red I crouched down to not see his face but his cock was right there to i screamed and walked to the other corner when he cornered me I got up but he grabbed my arms and held them down as he interlocked his lips with mine. He let go of my arms and I wrapped them around him and didn't let go I felt his tongue in my mouth but once I got my self together I pushed him away and off of myself. "Felix are you crazy you can't kiss me, don't you remember what your parent said, you can't date me. They don't like me. I love you Felix and I know I'll always love you but you can't kiss me although I want you to you can't." Tears flooded my eyes. "Felix just go away and leave me alone I can't have you do this to yourself you'll move away if your parents find out about us again so please don't love me anymore!" I shouted so loud that all I did was fall to the floor and cried. I wiped my eyes and looked at his face he looked sad. His eyes he wanted to hug me I can see that but he walked away from me with his eyes. I cried longer and couldn't stop. This time nobody was here to comfort me. I cried and cried and I hated that his mother did this I love him I love him so much. "Eliza please stop crying." I looked up from the ground to see Felix's face. "Felix I am sorry it's just I don't know what to do anymore I don't wanna lose you but your mother." "Eliza it's ok we can just do this in secret me and you nobody will know just our friends and that's It's I know our relationship wasn't long nor did much happen but come one I'll be here and I'll stay here because I love you." He reaches out his hand and I take it. Felix helps me up and kisses me once more.