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sae

- 4:56 am -

you

me when you ignore me

are you mad at me 😇

is it because i'm not there
in japan anymore

- 9:13 am -

you
oh lawd you rlly are mad

i'm sorry if i did anything
to upset you

- 10:32 am -

sae
no i'm not mad.

- 11:16 am -

you
then why have you been ignoring
my texts and calls lately :(

sae
idk.

i'm not mad.

you
you sureee

it seems like it

are you okay?

do you wanna talk about it?

only if you're comfortable ofc

sae
i'm fine stop being annoying.

you
what the fuck

look ever since the match you've
been extremely distant and i totally
understand youre upset

but if you need space you could
tell me rather than being all closed
off and giving me mixed signals???

sae
why are *you* getting mad.

i told you i wasn't upset with you.

you
sae.

i'm your girlfriend.

we're not supposed to be all any kine
w each other yk?? i'd appreciate some
communication to let us last

sae
you're being difficult.

you
I'M being difficult??

you're fucking kidding me

sae
yes.

you are.

you say that i've "changed" when
maybe it's you who needs some
eye opener or whatever.

you
i've given you SO MUCH time
to yourself

and every fucking time i've asked
if you were okay, i get left on read??

i'm used to your dry bs, but w/o
an explanation is absolutely ridiculous

sae
you're really trying to argue with
me through text right now?

you know that's even more ridiculous
than how you think i'm
behaving.

you
i'll have you know unlike you,
i have schooling

i'm not some stupid prodigy who gets
to travel all the time instead of
studying

sae
i worked my ass off to get to where
i am.

you
and you don't think i've done the
same?

if you weren't too busy ignoring me,
you'd know that i recently got accepted
into [insert university].

stop acting like the whole damn world
revolves around you when it very much
does not.

i'm sick and tired of trying to keep
our relationship from falling apart

it's been a month

a fucking month

since the match has taken place

i thought you'd know better than anyone
that the disappointment of losing
only makes you work harder to
achieve your goals, but i guess i was
wrong

because instead i'm left with whatever
fucking crumbs you wanna give

i've talked to hiroki about this

he said you've been quiet with him
too

what the fuck is up with you?

why can't you see we care?

why can you see that *I* care?

sae
i'm tired too.

okay?

i'm so fucking tired.

maybe long distance wasn't the best
route for two people like us.

you have your dreams and i have
mine.

you
stop fucking with me sae

i didn't say it was over

i want to fix things

sae
and nor did i.

yet at the rate this is going, we're
only going to hurt each other
more.

you
so what?

that's your solution?

to drop everything the moment
something doesn't go your way?

sae
well yeah.

maybe it is.
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